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Move

2008-06-27T21:11:00.002+02:00

Dearest all who have been reading my entries,

Ive finally moved to http://asyhhie.livejournal.com

Things are slowly but surely being updated.

Do leave your comments once in a while.

Enjoy!

tOodlEs

Auf Wiedersehen~

touched down

2008-06-24T10:26:00.002+02:00

Finally back home after being away for 6 months. Once again i shall say that time really passes fast. Im suffering from jet lag now. i cant sleep wen it doesnt reach 4am and cant wake up till after 3pm (spore time). haha ..

The amount of luggage i brought back frm Swiss was much much heavier than when i first came. haha~ blame it on the thick textbooks, thick winter clothings and all the heavy chocs .. hee~ As much as it feels great to finally be back home to my crazy lovable family and to my warm bed filled with at least 4 pillows and all my bears, i kinda miss being in Swiss.

I shall always remember and miss (not in order):

PI #11, #310, The Well, well-ganging, Villa, kulinar and sofra crevetten and funghi pizza, bus 20 and 21, dorni, horw zentrum, credit suiss, old town, student bars, events team, running up hill to catch the always on time buses, going back home from sch at 12.30am and walking at the dark-cant-even-see-your-fingers pathway to the bus stop, msn-ing during tourism lessons, stoning during marketing lessons, wish-it-will-end-faster german lessons, german wanted group, late night suppers, cook out sessions, tom yum soup, sambal prawns, cereal prawns, dissertating, reading past dissertations, all-due-together projects, the locker room, locker #11, the mountain view outside my room, the grocery shoppin to Central, Shanghai, Migro, Coop and Denner all at the same time, the trips to Paris, Barcelona, Konstanz, Florence and Venice, the open yourself public buses, The Lake, the walks to the lake to feed the swans and ducks, nicknaming ppl (awesome, 7-11, smigger, drawn together, keri-keri, su-ah, dipsy etc), maggi mee, climbing up the never ending staircase to my room, the room checks, pretzels, hot chocs, movenpick ice creams, migro chf2 chips, ovomaltine drinks and chocs, chf0.5 yogurt, orange juice, brunch, worst-than-prison-food in the dining hall, peppermint tea, snowball fights, wearing layers of clothes to go out during winter, still-freezing-cold spring and summer, addictive-cheat-your-money vending machines, Die Post, sunrise prepaid card, phone booth, flash calling cards, outdated computer rooms and always empty laptap rooms ..

there are more to list but it will then be never ending. im glad i took this step to brave out of my comfort zone.

Also a thank you to those who have made an impact in my life in IMI one way or another;

damian, gordon, shirine, utsav, kelvin, mich, shugan, liyan, daniel ...

Especially to:
audrey, surene, julianne and diba.

Thank for being part of my life every step of the way throughout my life in IMI. You guys have made my journey there unforgettable and memorable and i truly hope that we will stay friends forever in the long run and wen every time we meet, all those memories that we share will always be something that will bond us together.

on a separate note, will be switching to live journal soon. Started my poly life with blogger and shall end my sch life with blogger. will update my new url soon.

Till then

tOodlEs

degree holder

2008-06-18T22:29:00.006+02:00

I cant believe THE day have actually come and gone. I finally graduated with a BA in tourism and events management with a 2nd upper for my hons. 6 months in Swiss, in IMI realli zooms fast and i wished i could turn back time. I wouldnt want to change anything as everything that happens are great memories that i will forever treasure but mayb extend each day a bit longer.

And i found out i was only 1% short of getting a first class degree!! aRghHh .. so close yet so far. As the saying goes, if it's not meant to be urs it wont. But im already super proud of myself for getting this far and achieving this much especially achieving an A for my dissertation that took over my 5 mths of IMI life .. hee~. I hope my family are extremely proud for me. I reali owe them alot. Their love and motivation have always keep me going even wen im at my lowest. Coz in the end i kno they will always support me in whatever i aim to achieve and whatever im doin will ultimately be for them. Love them lots!!

Super busy days ahead. To Interlaken Jungfrau tmr and followed by skiing at Mt. Titlis on friday. And after that, time to fly back home to super hot sunny island of Singapore. As much as im looking forward to go back, i dread leaving the life im used to already. Will list down the things that i will miss here in Swiss soon.

On a lighter note, Italy trip to Florence and Venice was a dream come true. Pictures and long descriptions will be posted up wen i hav the time to write it back in Singapore.

till then ...

tOodlEs~

Winning doesnt always mean being first,
winning means you're doing better
than you've done before

change of plans

2008-06-08T01:55:00.001+02:00

8It's either im there at the wrong place at the wrong time or the right place at the right time. But seriously, life in IMI is like being in an interactive drama serial. As the months passes by, new characters comes and goes and the plot somehow gets .. complicated?

On a random note, it was nice having someone to share everything with. But wen it comes to the point wen i hav to restrict some stuff, i then begin to wonder - was it juz temporary to get me started and having to deal with everything by myself all over again? Sometimes u juz wished that the person was there for u to fall back on but then u'll realise that u shd keep it hidden only to urself like ur suppose to.

And wat if having hearing two side of a story and still unsure which to believe? In the first place it was not a problem for u to solve but then i believe never to judge or to hate a person without knowing him/her that well. And even if the person is ur fren, sometimes, u juz hav to always look at their better side and still be a fren but at the same time be wary ..

And work will officially be starting on October 5th. It means more time in Singapore, more time to meet up frens and more time to be with the family. And especially now with AI warded, at least i be there to help around the house and stuff.

To AI, be strong ya bro. U'll be okie. Just remember, god will not give a burden greater than wat one can bear. And i admire u for being stronger than me when u're so much younger.

Finally a big birthday shout out to my bro, khairul anwar aka 'baduman' .. lol
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!
You're finally reached the big 2-0!! so act ur age dude. hahaha~
Wishing u all the best and for ur future endeavors. :)

Off to Italy soon. Florence and Venice ... here i come. wee~

tOodlEs

Quote of the day:

To love someone is nothing. To be loved by someone is something. To love and be loved by someone is everything

2008-06-04T02:01:00.002+02:00

horoscope for the day:

Right now, there is way too much socializing to be done -- and the big questions about your life are just not important. This is a good thing for you, because until now you've been using up a lot of energy wondering about where you are headed. Pondering this type of imponderable question is a waste of time, so it's a good thing that your day will be filled with friends and laughter. You need to lighten up a bit, and these people will serve as the helium in your mood balloon

so wat am i waiting for? lets partyyy and hav fun!

but i still hav my trip to plan and packing to be done ... ohwells~

and thxs lots to diba mum for the yummy-licious mee rebus .. a taste of home. *grins

tOodlEs

Quote of the day:
Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life

the remaining few days

2008-06-02T15:25:00.004+02:00

The final paper ended bout 4hrs ago but somehow i wasnt glad everything's finally over. For one, the paper was a killer! Most of the stuff that i studied for didnt come out and the questions that i answered, i tried superbly hard to relate to what i've been reading tru the past few days and rely on my general knowledge of what ive studied since my poly years. Sigh~

Pray to god that i can at least scrape tru a B for all my subjects. *cross fingers

And, the end of exams means school's really over. There will be no more late nights in sch or well-ganging or the endless orders of pizza or the rushing for deadlines or the late nights doing projects or everything else that sch life offers. im reali going to miss life here ..

The only thing that im anticipating is the trip to Italy - Florence and Venice. Been wanting to go Venice since i learn bout it in the social studies subject way back in sec 4. haha~ and who knows i reali ended visiting it. Im truly lucky and im grateful for everything that have been goin on for me so far.

And later tonight, picking up diba parents frm zurich airport. cant wait for mee rebus tmr!! waha~ reali miss traditional home cooked food lah ..

And And .. sis will be here in 13 more days!!! cant wait to see her!!!

Time to start packing my stuff! can u believe it! I felt as if i juz arrived in Swiss and getting used to the pace of life here and now im packing to go home and to start a new chapter of my life. Hopefully all goes well. Insya'allah ..

tOodlEs

sigh-ing

2008-05-29T23:25:00.005+02:00

And so i couldnt stop myself frm blogging till after 2nd June.

Im clueless on wat to study for the int'l tourism exam and wats more it's focused on tourism policy and planning.

And im still not looking forward to tmr's oral test even though i wana get it done and over with ..

i cant study in the morning!!

and since summer is approaching and wen the heat sometimes gets unbearable, nothing feels more like heaven than eating a whole tub of ice cream. waha~

somebody save meee~

toodles ..

Quote of the day:

The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live

Flashback

2008-05-27T18:59:00.005+02:00

Thank to my dearest cow-fetish roomie (shes gona kill me for this.. waha), i decided to re-read my past entries from the moment i left Singapore to my most recent entry. And it really brought back alot of memories which i shall treasure for a very very long time. We realli cant help it but in all of our convo nowadays there will be an emo moment that either me or diba will bring up. Yes roomie i will reali miss u and ur weird crazy 'irritating' moments.

Coincidentally my horoscope for the day says:

Starting today, you can expect the feverish pace of your life to slow down quite a bit -- and it's not a moment too soon! This throttling down is going to happen organically, and it will offer you the chance to recharge your drained batteries. So you can look forward to letting the craziness of the world pass on by you while you kick back and relax with the friends who know how to help you unwind. The forecast is for sunnier, more social times ahead.

yes pls .. more social time with the peepz ive gotten close to here before we start moving on our separate ways.

And on other news, so far the exams have been .. erm .. hmmm .. indescribable. Marketing was oookkiieee but im not reali confident in one of the question i answered and German .. well .. lets juz say had brutally murdered me and im not looking forward to the oral test cming friday. sigh~ thank god it's not included in our overall BA marks. Just hope that tourism can help me push my marks back up. *prays and cross fingers ..

And and, yest i decided to watch the movie 'Ayat ayat cinta'. It's not like me to watch a malay/indon movie but since it was recommended, no harm watching rite. And .. i cried!! my tears are all wasted crying for all the sad movies but it was worth it. Juz a tout after watching the movie: Are you strong enuf to see the man u love marries someone else? Im not so sure of the answer for myself. But hopefully i dont need to ans it at all ...

okie i shd stop blogging till after the 2nd June .. we'll see how long it can last. hee~

tOodlEs

Quote of the day:

Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change

what more can i say ...

side-track

2008-05-26T23:39:00.002+02:00

Im suppose to be memorizing the whole stack of German notes but here i am changing my blogskin. tsktsk~

I'll start soon. Promise.

tOodlEs

passing days

2008-05-25T21:36:00.002+02:00

In a few hours time, the start of the nightmare begins. A week juz zooms past and i pray hard that whatever i've been studying will stay in my head till after 11am. haha~ Pls god make the 2hrs as painless as possible.
But shouldnt i get used to exams? Been sitting for countless number of exams for the past 15 years of my sch life. And this will be my last time sitting for exams till if i decide to take up MBA. haha~ So .. shouldnt i be anticipating it and be sad that it's all gona be over soon .. right? ermm .. lol

Went tru my organiser yesterday and as i flip tru each week since the start of my life in Swiss, im surprised at myself for surviving all those agonizing deadlines that are all packed close to each other. And wen i start flipping to future dates after today, im shocked at the limited time im left here!! the coming week will be filled with me studying for German and tourism den the week after, packing for spore and florence/venice trip den the week after that the long awaited Italy trip den after that sis will be arriving = graduation and soon it will be time to fly home. OMG-ness lah! sigh~
Ohwells .. lets treasure the remaining days we have left ..

And news frm sis, my littlest bro is making problems again. It has and always been him. Doesnt he kno how much time and money have been spent on him? Doesnt he seem to care what mum have been sacrificing so far mostly for him and this is the way he pays all of it back? I juz dont get wats running in the thick skull of his. sigh~ I juz hope as i step into the working world, i could help out with the family expenses and put less burden on mum. She needs a rest already.

Mayb the first step is to do well for my degree so that she can be proud of me. And if i do well, im dedicating it also to my elder sis and dad's unachievable dreams.

Back to memorising ..

tOodlEs~

soon .. very soon

2008-05-23T21:11:00.004+02:00

Friday is already coming to an end. And im still not at all confident on where my marketing revision is goin. I hope all goes well on Monday. *crossfingers

And for a perk-me-up .. chocolates!! the only way to finish reading the chapters without falling asleep. Sadly it failed. sigh .. haha

And we had a super belated grad ceremony for our cert that we took in SIM. better late than never huh .. but seriously, the mini-ceromony wasnt at all necessary. haha

the first batch of SIM-IMI students

School gona end soon in about a week's time. Everyone is goin tru an emo phase of leaving frens that have been made and gotten used to. For me, there's countless of stuff here that i'll be missing. Will list them down wen the time comes nearer. As they say, all good things have to come to an end. And less than a month time before i'll be back in Spore.

wish me luck for the exams.

tOodlEs~

1 litre of tears

2008-05-20T22:50:00.003+02:00

Sis recommended the J-drama - 1 litre of tears quite some time ago wen i juz started sch. Bookmark the webpage and only now do i have the mood to start watching. She told me tt i wll cry buckets of tears and surely i did .. from the start till the end i cried.

Following the story, I admire her strength, her perseverance and her will to carry on despite wat she faces. To think what im have is bad enuf and downright scary but throughout the show it teaches me a lesson of life. The story really made me reflect on myself more and i end up crying not only for her but for myself as well. I cant reali compare what i have with what she faced but the similarities of questioning why exists. I do try to keep the things under wraps and so far ive been succeeding. I juz want to be normal. To be like everybody else. Sometimes i wonder how is it like if 'it' was never a part of me. No denying that becoz of 'it', sometimes i wished i was never born in the first place. How unlucky can one be. It's tiring to try to be accepted and try to act as if everything's alright.

But throughout it all, im still glad being me. From the challenges that i went tru i realise the true meaning of famly, who my true frens are and who i really am. I should not count myself as being unlucky but special. Judge me for all i care. You have no idea what my life have been about. The first 11 years of my life i was being sheltered. i was still green and naive. But that moment. From that particular day i was forced to grow up. I have been fighting my own demons and i've been fighting the world. I will continue on fighting coz i kno one day it will all be worth it. As tiring as it is and in times when i feel there is no use continuing on, i shall push myself up and move on. Coz at the end of the day wen it's time for me to go, i know i have done my best and i know that it is time for me to finally rest and let it all go. The pain that i have to go tru physically and emotionally i kno can only make me stronger. Mayb someday the burden i carry can be shared with whom i know is the one. For now im contented with god being my best fren. Mayb he has some plans for me that only he knows is the best. Till that moment i shall wait patiently. I shall continue moving on like what ive been doing thus far. In the end when i look back in my life i do not want to hav any regrets and wishing that i could turn back time and change what have been done or have not been done.

tOodlEs

missing pieces

2008-05-18T16:17:00.003+02:00

The past few days or should i say since yesterday i feel that something's not right. My head is clouded with touts that i myself am clueless about. Just to smile take up some effort to do so when i kno i hav to in order to show the world everything's alright. Well they are arent they? but whats with this crappy feeling. Im not depressed or worried or stressed but all ive been wanting to do is crawl under my comforter and hide myself and sleep the day away. sigh. dont even ask me wat the problem is coz i dont even know.

Mayb somehow unconsciously i may kno why or mayb im juz being paranoid or mayb im juz being me. At times like this i wish i was back home.

ohwell~ i'll be alright soon

tOodlEs

while everyone's asleep

2008-05-16T11:30:00.002+02:00

While majority of our course mates have ended class 2 days ago and now still soundly asleep in their oh-so-comfy bed, here we (particularly events students) are in class, stoning our way tru juz for an extra cert. ohwell~ last lesson to end the semester. and the reality that sch gona be over soon is slowly sinking in.

For the past 2 days have been watching bollywood movies - mohabbatein & khabi khusi khabi gham. While some of our frens are having drinking sessions, we decide to have out own crying session instead.
And yesterday surene came to join us for dinner and movie ... and she decide to sleep over. And at the sad part of the movie, she started to laugh!!! ArgH!! spoiler lah surene!!! hahahaha .. the day before yest diba laughed at the sad part too! mayb today i shall laugh instead of crying .. hahaha
Then they decided to watch 6thsense in which i feel asleep coz i felt it was boring. lol

I still have yet to get into the mood to start studying. Mayb on sunday latest i'll start chiong-ing

till then

tOodlEs
And to those who wana see pics of my trips so far, everything is posted on facebook. =)

almost there

2008-05-13T06:30:00.001+02:00

Time check: 6.30am

After fighting with the printer to print out 8 sets of dissertations, it's finally done!! but only after 12pm then i shall celebrate. haha. Amazingly i didnt sleep! im still awake but i predict that during marketing class later i will stone my way tru and concussed rite after that. waha~
Hopefully the hard work that was put in for the past 5mth to write the 12,000 words dissertation will pay off. Same goes to all the other assignments and projects that we lost our sleep and sanity over. lol

Time to claim back my sleep and watching movies will be my top priority till mayb after the weekends wen it's time to start mugging for the exams.

Anyhoos, I kno im abit too late but still ... HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!! =)
Called mummy dearest on Sunday and she was at my aunt house for a family gathering. It was funnie wen her hp was passed around from my grandmother to my aunts to cousins and to my siblings.

A month left in Swiss .. im reali gona miss life here. *sigh

tOodlEs

tick tock

2008-05-06T11:22:00.003+02:00

Exactly 2 month from now i'll be starting my first day of werk. But before that, now im still goin crazy with sch's assignment. Im not at all confident with the way my individual events essay is turning out. hElp~ and yest got my dissertation and it was a bit of a shocker. Stuff to edit and things to find. I'll get all of it done and over with soon.

On a separate note, did some reflecting .. for the past 5 month here, a lot things have been happening. Situation change, people change and u can never get back to that once upon a time. Throughout my time here i've learn more bout myself as well as others around me. Got close to ppl i never once talk to and got torn apart from ppl that i usually do. Disappointed at some but overall at least i kno now the true meaning when they say change is inevitable.

And on a random note, i cant stand ppl rejoicing at others downfall. Dont you kno that what goes around comes around.

counting down to: 8 days of school left .. hmmm~

tOodlEs

confirmed!!!

2008-05-02T01:55:00.001+02:00

Train tixs and accommodation booked and confirmed ..

Florence and Venice here i come ...

Well .. after the exams. Cant wait!!!

tOodlEs

P.H

2008-05-01T20:01:00.003+02:00

It's suppose to be a public holiday - it's labour day for god sake. But here i am stuck in sch since 8.30am for a 4hrs class of German!!! And since im here might as well stay in the well to complete my PDP reflective report. Almost done .. 300 words to go .. haa~

After 2 weeks finally called back home. Im always looking forward to doin so. I ll be back soon .. less than 2 mths now. counting down to the moment SQ touches down on Spore's ground. haha~

Anyhoos, some nights ago, i had this super weird dreams. First, i realise i was laughing so hard in my sleep that it woke me up. Den wen i went back to sleep, i started crying so bad that i couldnt breath. The worst part of it i kno it was a dream but i couldnt wake up till the point i was gasping for air. *shivers ..
When i finally managed to come back down to earth, i didnt dare to sleep back. The weird part of it all is that i cant remember what the dreams were about that made me laugh and cry so bad.

And bout a few mins ago was watching Kal Ho Na Ho .. yes a bollywood movie. The funnie thing is there's no subtitile. Nonetheless i kept on watching. And i understood most of the parts (mayb coz ive watched it before). Still, i do teared up .. tsktsk asy. ur a sucker for this kinda movies. hahaha~

Back to work.

And today feels like a Saturday. hee~ okie random ..

tOodlEs

wats new?

2008-04-29T19:18:00.000+02:00

horoscope for the day:

Change is inevitable in your life, but it is not always welcome. A new job, a new home, a new relationship or even just a new shiny gadget will affect your life in a much more complicated way than you were expecting. It is essential that you don't overreact to any discomfort you are feeling about this transition. Give yourself time to get used to things, and do not jump to the conclusion that you have made a huge mistake. There is no going back -- the only way is forward

And so i've been told .. sigh

tOodlEs

almost

2008-04-28T22:16:00.003+02:00

Had an all niter yesterday. Stayed up till 5am to complete the first draft of my dissertation. I nearly went crazy trying to find all my references. Went tru every book, every paper, every page that i ever had my hands on juz to confirm if i was referencing everything properly. yes i've reached my 12,000 word limit .. to think it was impossible initially. lolz~

And today, since the rest are going for the first f&b concept, had dinner with the Gohs in Pilatus. Cereal prawns and beef rendang .. yummy. den after that had after dinner movies - Happy Feet and Anastasia ... im in love with Dimitri all over again. hahaha~ Halfway tru the show, i realised that the Gohs had fallen soundly asleep.
Will be eating the same menu again tmr .. waha~

Anyhoos, busy days up ahead. Other than PDP, there's the events indv essay to do. All this within a week to complete. And then back to editting for my final disseratation submission and before the 10m dash to the finishing line.

Till then ..

Toodles

and the night is still young

2008-04-26T04:10:00.002+02:00

It wasnt my cup of tea. Tried it for the sake of trying and as much as i tried to have fun, im not sure i did. It's juz the whole environment. Call me boring but i thank god im not into it. For one, i dont find the purpose or benefit it brings. It only creates trouble and u might end up doing things u'll regret.

As i expose myself to the world beyond my comfort zone, i pray that my faith will always be kept strong. It helps define whom am i and the boundaries that is set. Sticking to that boundaries doesnt restrict me but protect me instead. And i thank god for that.

This sudden reflection really made me think how much i should be thankful for. Im glad i was bought up in a family where i learn the importance of faith and understanding that i can do anything and everything that im capable of but to always remember that god is always there watching, helping and guiding.

tOodlEs

the weeks comes and goes

2008-04-23T23:00:00.007+02:00

Nowadays, more often than not i find myself staying in my room the whole day. Im getting accustomed to juz slack in my oh-so-comfortable room with all kinds of snacks within my reach. waha~

this is where i stay ..

Anyhoos, i try not to think bout it but my roomie is not helping!! thxs arh babe. haha .. yes only 3 weeks of school left to study week. As much im looking forward to end it all but at the same time im dreading the tout of finally ending sch life.

Currently, im going crazy finding all my references that i used for my dissertation. Yes im done with all chapters!!! wrote near to 11,000 words!!! im impressed with myself. waha~ but it's not the end. I yet to get back my chap 4 (which i hand it in more than a week ago!) to edit and to proof-read everything and make sure there's no plagiarism.

On a separate note, i think im mastering the skill of beating round the bush'. Not exactly proud of it but it's a skill necessary in this thing called life. I wont lie but only say what is sufficiently needed. And my reason for doin so is to protect the ppl i care for ..

my revised to-do list:
-PDP reflective report
-events individual essay
-complete dissertation 1st draft
-study for german 2nd written test
after all the above are done:
-study for exams: tourism mgt, marketing mgt and german

note to self:
u can do it asy~ .. u've been tru worst. juz this final lap and it'll be soon over.

international night coming friday. im still contemplating shd i wear my kebaya. haha

updates on it soon~

toODleS ..

the last 200m

2008-04-18T02:33:00.002+02:00

I nearly went crazy trying to finish up the events project plan. Seems to me this is harder than the previous MM project. We're so clueless lahh .. hopefully wat we did is adequately sufficient to earn ourselves an A. *cross fingers
Im reali gona miss my this events group. Shirine and Utsav was so sweet lah. They kno im not going to sch today coz i wanted to stay in Pilatus to finish compiling the report. So they came over to Pilatus from 2pm till 11.40pm to complete everything tog! so touched ..

I can finally sleep without waking up every half an hour worrying bout wasting my time sleeping instead of doing the project. But i forsee this happening again as the due date of our dissertation gets closer. But for now let me enjoy sleeping even if it's only half the day. waha~ miss such luxury. haa~

AND ...

it's confirmed!!
Im going back home to Singapore on the 21st June 2008 at 10.05pm (swiss time)
SO ... i will reach Singapore Changi Airport at 4.10pm (spore time) on the 22nd June 2008!!!

cant wait!!!

okie time for bed!!

tOodlEs

random happenings

2008-04-13T11:16:00.005+02:00

And for today:

Are you worried that there is too much happening in your life right now? Think about those days that are filled with boredom and how difficult they can be, and then consider yourself lucky that you are being kept so active and busy right now. You are very popular, so enjoy it! Try to be grateful for the jam-packed schedule you have -- there are many people who would trade places with you in an instant. The grass is always greener on the other side. Be content with how things are, today.

It's always either bcoz of coincidence or they cld somehow read my mind. Thats why im constantly intrigued what will my daily horoscope says.

I hate the feeling of knowing that im pissing ppl off. But hey .. u cant always please everyone. They can either contd hating me for doin so or forgive me in the end. And not that im making excuses but i wasnt myself wen it happened. haa~

Chapter 4 finally done. but not sure if im doing it right. Now im stressed over events report. totally lost~ haix

Anyhoos, german excursion ard banholf tmr .. waha~ i find this super funnie. Still, better than being stuck in the classroom for 4hrs of torture. haha~

AND .. can u believe there's only a mth of sch left!!! and there's still endless stuff to do! ohwells~ life of a student huh. and im so gona miss it once 6th july come. haha ..

Been stuck in H.Pilatus the whole day. Initially wanted to drop by the sch to the library to check out the dissertation that i borrowed but after analyzing my other impt stuffs to do, i decide not to. haa~ And so, on things to do list:

-events project plan
-dissertation chap 2 & 5
-PDP reflective report
-events individual essay
-read marketing textbook for tmr lesson
-german hw

But all i want to do now is sleep. hahaha~

tOodlEs

the offer

2008-04-10T14:18:00.002+02:00

I was ecstatic as soon as i saw the subject of the email. Even before i open the document i was already covering my mouth to constrain myself from screaming. the first person that pop in my mind that i should tell was mummy dearest. haha~ She was the one who encourage me to go for it, to seek the opportunity to get a job overseas and i believe her prayers was one of the factors that got me in. Amin~

To cut things short, i was offered a full time job at Tiara Hotels and Resorts in Dubai as a Guest Relations Executive. I'll be starting work on the 6th July and so ... i be first flying back to Spore by the 25th June. So attention frens who dearly miss me .. if you wana meet up with me before i disappear again for a year (i can only fly back yearly once i start work), book me now! i will be flying to Dubai most probably on the 4th July. So in between the days, i shall fit as many ppl as possible in my schedule not forgetting eating all the yummy foodies i've been missing so much. haha~

As scary as it is to set off away from family and frens once again and longer this time, im anticipating the prospect of gaining experience from working in a newly build luxurious hotel.

And as i look back at my aspirations which i've written down a long time ago, it seems that slowly things are falling into place. Still the uncertainty factor lies ahead but insyallah the path that im heading towards is where my belief and faith be kept strong.

Back to dissertation chap 4.

Toodles!

Im glad everything slowly but surely goin well ..

The Spring Break

2008-04-06T14:54:00.001+02:00

Back to reality. Back to the world of dissertation-taking-over-ur-life. And so my spring break update:

KONSTANZ~

Finally met my aunt who lives in Germany after years. As much as i was excited to the tout of travelling there once again but i was afraid that i might be abit uncomfortable and awkward. Luckily though it was a last minute invitation, im glad that mich agreed to go. Most of the time we would slack at her home to watch movies, take long afternoon naps, sing karaoke till 2am, walk around the old town and bought a super nice crumpler bag for only 25euros = S$50!! cheapcheap!! and it's original btw. waha~ the best buy so far. hee~ had traditional german dinner, super nice easter brunch and i got an easter basket for the first time!! hee~

BARCELONA~

A trip which i initially was unsure why i actually decided to go but im glad i did so despite things that happened throughout. Juz to get there really exhausted us tremendously with all the changing of the different transportation - frm bus to train to bus to plane to bus to train. There was no itinerary planned like wat we did for Paris. Instead it's the 'spurofthemoment' decisions on what we wana do and where we wana go. That explains why we always get lost for hours. haha~

Highlight of the trip
-Climbing 5 story of stairs to Pension Bahia (our hostel) which was barely unlivable
-Gordon banging into a lampost
-Leaving Gordon to shop as we go for 3 hours of cycling tour
-Walking and walking and walking coz we got lost for 1 1/2hr to find a magic fountain (in the end we still didnt find it .. haha)
-Got separated with the guys in the Metro
-The extremely fateful incident
-Allergic reaction

These are only the tip of the iceberg .. =P

Lots of pics was taken frm 4 different cameras .. and mine alone has a total of 500+ pics!! waha~
Anyhoos, pics will be updated in the next post ..

OTHER SHORT TRIPS~

Mt.Titlis
Followed Mich there coz she wana distribute her survey. And Pat followed us coz she had nthing better to do. hee~ Tout of snowboarding since we're there but it started to snow super heavily. Mayb next time ..

Zurich
This time followed Brainy for her dissertation interview at Park Hyatt. The hotel was extremely classy. While waiting, i managed to read a bit for my dissertation chap 2. haha~ Den we got lost at another side of Zurich. The worst thing it snowed heavily and the the strong cold wind doesnt help. Finally managed to meet up with KX and Norman and we head down to Singapore Restaurant for lunch. A set of meal cost nearly CHF20 which we can easily get for less than S$5!! ohwells~

And so .. my spring break was filled with going everywhere except trying to complete my dissertation. So enuf of fun and lets start chiong-ing ..

toOdlEs

back to reality

2008-04-01T00:09:00.003+02:00

Konstanz was a relaxing trip and Barcelona was a trip i will not forget anytime soon or ever. Updates will be made soon. For now, i gota chiong my dissertation. Im far far behind.

In the meantime, whoever visits my blog, do visit this 2 web links and help me to fill it up. Juz a total of 15 short qns. i promise. pls and thanks.

http://www.polldaddy.com/s/6979FDD3D5B348E0/

http://www.polldaddy.com/s/4D70DA9EA72DE835/

tOodlEs

back and gone

2008-03-25T20:27:00.003+01:00

Back from Konstanz bout two days ago but was as usual, my time was filled up with stuffs i need and have to do.

The short trip was what i needed. To get away from where i stand and face my past again. Though i might not find what i was looking for but at least i kno i have moved on after all the years. Thanks michey for following even though it was a last minute, random question on whether u wana follow me on the trip. Appreciate it lots. *grins

Anyhoos, tmr i will be leaving for Barcelona. My worst nightmare for goin on this trip is that when i get back, i will be way back in my sch werk. But reali, i need to travel. haha .. promise i will work superly extra hard wen the next term starts.

Back to trying to complete my chap 2 .. haix

tOodlEs

gone

2008-03-20T10:56:00.000+01:00

Leaving for konstanz, germany later ...

toOdleS

great?

2008-03-19T12:39:00.003+01:00

Horoscope for the day:

You had a great day yesterday, and you'll have a great day again, today! You are in the midst of a wonderfully happy phase, when even the grouchiest of people will cause you to giggle and smile. There's just no telling where all of this good energy has come from, but why question it? Embrace the good vibes. Have fun with them -- and have fun with that certain new someone in your life who is always so very good at making your already bright smile even brighter.

SO tell me .. which part of my day yesterday was great? And so far which part of today is any difference than any normal day? And wat new someone? How contradicting can all of this be ..

And if u are not aware, im going konstanz, germany tmr and wen i return it's off to barcelona .. looking forward to it or dreading it .. hmmm .. mayb somewhr in between.

toOdleS

all nighter

2008-03-18T11:11:00.003+01:00

It was crazy yesterday. Another first time .. haha

Will be having our events presentation on the mini cooper car launch later in the afternoon. So yesterday, had a meeting with my group mates at classroom 8 from 8pm all the way to ..... 3am! This was the longest group meet i have ever been to but it was so much fun. Hopefully it'll goes well later. *cross fingers

And finally we got back our marketing group project ... we did well!! yay to us! a 'B' for our overall 30% for the subject. His marking was extremely strict .. no one get an A for it. But alhamdulillah our hard work paid off .. especially wen the weekend before the submission my lappy broke down and i had to have an all nighter in school to use the sch computers to finish it off.

Cant wait for tmr at 5.30pm wen i can start to breath again. lol

toOdlEs

halfway tru

2008-03-15T04:04:00.003+01:00

First part of the semester is coming to an end soon. One more week to go and spring break here we come. wOohOo .. BUT there's still endless datedues to be adhere to before that.

1) Tourism Seminar
2) Research Methods essay
3) MICE presentation: mini cooper launch
4) German written test
5) Designing and distributing my questionnaire
6) Contd dissertation chap 2

All this to be completed by end next week. *faints

Time check: 4.05am
Current status: wide awake and starving. haha

But after all this, to konstanz i go with brainy to visit my aunt. Wen i return, it's off to Barcelona with julz, damian and gordon. dont ask me why barcelona. i juz wana travel and thats the destination that we can affort .. waha~

Once school ends im really gona miss everything here. I gona miss Hotel Pilatus for sure eventhough there's the endless staircase i have to climb up to my room, the view frm my window, the cool weather, to juz be able to put stuff out the window to cool it, my daily salad consumption, the open-yourself buses and their right-on-time schedules, the shops that only opens till 6pm frm Mon-Thur, 8pm on Fridays, 4pm on Sat and closed on Sundays, hanging out at the 'well' with crazy ppl till late, having my own night walk in the dark (cant even see my fingers kinda dark) wen i wana go home from school at night, business suits with heels everyday, snacks and groceries shopping at 6 different places (Migro, Coop, Denner, OTO, Shanghai and the halal meat shop), eating yummy butter pretzels, drinking hot chocs and the lists practically goes on. Im just not ready to go back home yet (no wonder spore needs alot of expatriates .. sporeans juz keep on leaving). Hopefully i will get offered to work overseas. *cross-fingers

time for bed .. eventhough im not sleepy. need to wake up soon to go for brunch.

tOodlEs

run and hide

2008-03-12T23:10:00.003+01:00

Im not home sick .. i dont mind staying here for a long period of time. But somehow today i wished i was back home. Hiding under my comforter and away from the world. No im not depressed or anything but i juz wana run away for now.

This keep me going ..

IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY ...
Keep believing in yourself
take the best of care
try to put things in perspective
remember what's more important
don't forget that someone cares
search for the positive side
learn from the lessons to be learned
and find your way through to
the inner qualities ...
the strength, the smiles, the wisdom
and the optimistic outlook
that are such special parts
of you.

-barin taylor-

tOodLes

rebel

2008-03-10T08:27:00.002+01:00

I never have done this before and never tout of doin it ever. Surprisingly it happened. Had the shortest class ever - 15mins tops. Coz all but 3 of us were asked to leave class. hahaha~ the reason why is bcoz all of us didnt read the chapter that he wanted to teach beforehand. SO he felt that there was no point for us to stay except for the 3. waha~

Anyhoos, 2 more submissions down today and 1 more for tomorrow. I cant wait for next week to end and it'll be spring break!! To germany we go~

toOdlEs

late nights

2008-03-09T03:12:00.002+01:00

First and foremost:

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY BRAINY!!!!!

woOhoO .. *throws confetti

The pre-birthday celebration was exceptionally fun - ice skating and yummyliciouz dinner. food was great, ambiance was perfect but the company was the 'bomb' .. haha. And yes UNO bonded us more. haha~ imagine 8 of us playing UNO in starbucks. and 1 game took nearly an hr to end. hahahah~

pics will be up soon. *grins

Time check: 3.20am
Venue: School's well

Minutes after arriving back to Hotel Pilatus, we decided to go to school for well-ganging and do our werk the whole night. So here we (diba and me) are, trying to finish chapter 3 for monday's submission. And we're not the only crazy ppl here. There's ppl from sch dorm, other frm hotel pilatus and the villa who are here to chiong for projects submission. We're super hardworking mann!! so pround of us. haa~ Will be taking the first bus back and then straight to bed.

WIll be having another fun fun day tmr .. will update on it once the day ends. haha~

tOodlEs

soup party

2008-03-07T22:29:00.004+01:00

Great fun yummlicious soupy dinner. and it cost only $6.70 per person. had macaroni soup w/ chix, seafood tomyam soup and sambal prawns .. *grins. Shopping for ingredients with surene was fun - we went frm central to shanghai to coop den to denner which took us about 3hrs in total! waha~ Overall, the food was great, company was fantabulous and after dinner entertainment was extremely enjoyable. thanks guys. lets do it again!!!

Ice-skating tmr!!! cant wait!! confirm i'll get sore muscles the next day. the cool thing bout it is it's an open area ice-skating rink! not like the one in spore - inside a building.

Chiong-ing for Chap 3 now.
And i have yet to get back my Chap 2! wth-lah. haix.

Random Pics

Potted plants outside my windows - now all are dead .. lolx

view outside my window

my super duper thick textbooks

my daily dose of snacks .. waha~

i killed mr easter bunny

beautiful view of the sunset

my cosy corner in the room .. hee~

tOodlEs

heaven's blanket

2008-03-05T16:38:00.009+01:00

To think that we onli could experience snow during that one day but then, at about 1am yesterday it started to snow while i was doing my marketing pair work project. I know that when i wake up in a few hours time, everything will be all white.

But wen i woke up at 10am, it was snowing super heavily. The view outside was totally misty and i was worried if it continues to snow as such, how can i ever go to sch. Thank god that an hour before i left for sch, it stopped. *grins

One thing that i love about the snow is that wen it falls, it does it with grace - slowly and softly. And wen it stops, it covers the world making everthing looks perfect, pure and beautiful - like a blanket from heaven. Sadly this might be the last time i will be able to experience snow as spring is coming in about a week time. But im thankful i get to experience seeing snow fall, walking in falling snow and of coz the snowball fights. hee~

1am snow

raining snow

Outside my window

The after effect

beautiful scenery

resting on snow

dibz, aud and me

pinky and the brain

me and diba

snowball fight

revenge is sweet .. waha

own made snow fall

snow attack

bed of snow

more pics in this link:
http://s28.photobucket.com/albums/c248/asylan/Switzerland/Luzern/Snow/?albumview=slideshow

tOodLes

white blanket

2008-03-04T09:00:00.000+01:00

it's snowing .... again!!!

wee~

prayers

2008-03-02T12:09:00.002+01:00

prayer for the day and everyday:-

OH ALLAH, I thank YOU for this day.
I thank YOU for my being able to see and to hear this morning.
I'm blessed because YOU are forgiving and understanding, Oh ALLAH. YOU have done so much for me & YOU keep on blessing me & my family.
Forgive us this day for everything we have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you.
I ask YOU now for YOUR forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from YOU.
Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper! over things I have no control over.
Let me continue to see sin through YOUR eyes and acknowledge it as evil.
And when I sin, let me repent, and receive YOUR forgiveness.
And when this world closes in on me,
let me remember YOU - to slip away and find a quiet place to make DUA.
It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.
I know that when I can't make DUA, YOU listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do YOUR will.
Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others.
Keep me strong that I may help the weak.
Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.
I make DUA for those that are lost and can't find their way.
I make DUA for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.
I make DUA for those who don't know YOU intimately.
I make DUA for those that don't believe. But I thank YOU that I believe.
I believe that ALLAH changes people and ALLAH changes things.
I make DUA for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households.
I make DUA for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.
I make DUA that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than ALLAH.
Every battle is in YOUR hands for YOU to fight.
I make DUA that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly.

Amin ..

-taken frm a post on facebook-

ToOdlEs

chiong-ing

2008-03-01T23:03:00.002+01:00

and the advice for the day (2nd March):

The best thing for your ego right now is honest, old-fashioned hard work. Roll up your sleeves and get started doing something that enables you to see real progress by the end of the day. Create something concrete, and challenge yourself to finish it by the end of the day.

with all the deadlines coming up im sure gona be sticking to this advice cum horoscope .. as usual. haha .. wish me luck!

yummy sweet hot chicken curry for dinner.
im like a hungry ghost today - ate 1 big butter pretzel at ard 4.30pm, then had 1 large omelet that uses 4 eggs and lots of mushrooms (shared with brainy) at ard 5.30pm, then chewed on biscuits bout 6.30pm and had 2 large curry chix with rice and bread for dinner at 8pm... and now im hungry again. waha~

tOodlEs

the crazy week begin

2008-02-29T21:44:00.002+01:00

Updates on this blog is long overdue. Not that i hav nothing to write but everytime i do think of updating, i dont see the point of do so.

Anyhoos, juz some general updates on my oh-so-interesting life. haa~

The intensity of the course is finally starting. Im mentally exhausted to the point that Im even too tired to sleep. haha~

My chapter two wasnt completed wen i handed it up but i hav to coz i didnt want to push back the deadline which will then push back my other projects deadline = more work to do. So i will edit and complete it once i get it back. For now, other deadlines include:
1) dissertation chap 3
2) marketing pair work
3) events car launch project
4) tourism seminar
5) PDP (resume editing)
6) German test

Had a cooking session juz now. yummy samosa and epok2 (curry puffs) .. wee~ though most of the curry puffs got stuck together, it still tasted nice and so was the samosas .. yay-ness.

Found out from my mum, a neighbour of ours got beaten up so bad that he broke both his legs and they hav to infuse metals in them and go for therapy to walk again. I should not rejoice in someone mishaps and not the place for me to say that he deserves it but i cant help it. He has been bugging my family far so long, disturbing the other neighbours and down right irritating. Mayb he finally pissed someone off so bad and got wat he has been asking for.

Note to self: I should get used to not working with ppl i know; I should get used to understanding others way of thinking and logic; I should get used to solving my own problems; I should get used to being myself and not let others judge me for my weaknesses. I should get used to forgetting the past - it's the only way i can move on.

I've yet to post back the little eiffles i got for my family and some swiss made chocs. But i need to find my youngest bro bday prezie first so i could sent everything back at the same time. I have the thing in mind but yet to find the perfect one. hmmm ..

Can't believe im here for 3 months already. impressive. haa~

Till then. tOodlEs

A week later

2008-02-23T16:03:00.004+01:00

To start off, yes my lappy is fine and all ready to serve me well. waha~ thankie sis for sending the back up discs ASAP and thankie lots damian once again for reviving it .. haha.

Anyhoos, currently im still drowning in chapter 2 of my dissertation. I have way too much info and im having trouble organising everything to fit into each other perfectly. I know i will have it done but right now im not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. haa~ yes im exaggerating.

And oh my mum gona be laughing at me oh so hard .. with pride .. coz ... im too domesticated already. Im doing my own grocery shopping and cooking! *faints .. haha. I dont cook (unless i feel like it) coz usually mum wld do it and i never bother to kno wat ingredients to use or which condiments or spices to put in and whatever else thats needed. Veges to me all look the same and i cant differentiate any of it. And now im so regretting not learning the so called important stuffs. Been cooking beef soup, ayam masak merah, pasta and will be cooking lauk lemak ayam, fried fish soup, beef rendang, samosa, curry puff .. OMG-ness .. hahaha~ but im craving for nasi lemak, nasi ayam and laksa. hahaha .. will ask mum to tell me the instructions on how to cook all this mann ..

Help me decide. Should i stay in Swiss for my in-training or apply for the one in Dubai? im still undecided. aRghHh ..

Paris trip will be updated soon. My greatest apologies. After i submit my chap 2 i promise.

Event classes starts coming monday = busy busy full day week. haix

back to work. someone save meeee ..

tOodlEs

horoscope cum advice

2008-02-17T12:45:00.002+01:00

And for today my horoscope tells me that:-

Your emotions are a strong asset, and you haven't been using them as much as you should be. Are you afraid that if you lead with your feelings that you won't be taken as seriously as you would be if you led with the facts? Not so. Today, integrate how you feel into more conversations and debate situations. It will help other people understand how you think, and it will also help someone new feel a lot closer to you. Your emotions are what truly make you who you are

hmmm .. anyhoos ..

Im truly exhausted now. Im forcing my brain to function when it's screaming for me to rest. Been sleeping over at A&J room for the past two nights on their floor coz i stayed in school till very very late at night since im using the sch comp lab to finish off the mkting project. As much as they try to make me feel comfortable (which im truly grateful for), i will always wake up countless of times coz im shiverin to death or my legs will cramp up from the cold. I juz pray i will have my precious lappy fix ASAP.

Long week up ahead with classes from 8am to 5.30pm. As much as i need the strength to face each day, i would pray for my frens instead. They need it more than i do.

tOodLes

setbacks

2008-02-15T20:25:00.003+01:00

I never would have imagine that I will be facing this but i currently am - my precious lappy died on me out of a sudden. To top it off, one of our project is due on Monday and im still in the midst of editting it. I could easily say 'why me' but wat good will it do.

When one of my fren had to overcome the sort-of-the same situation recently, i felt for her. That time i said that if i were in her shoes, i will feel totally lost and for which i admire her patience throughout it all. I was afraid that i will not be strong enuf. Somehow i feel that because i doubt myself, the current situation helps me realise i too can and will do without my lappy for now. It might be a petty problem but being here, your laptop is your life and part of my soul. My everything is inside and for now im prepared to face losing it all. Right now, till everythings goes back to normal, i have to use the school computer that is super slow and the worst thing is im not living in the school dorm anymore. So i guess i have to bring some of my stuff over and bunk in A&J room. But looking at the bright side, thank god wen it crashed, my thumbdrive wasnt affected.

It seems that since i've been here, there have been lots of challenges that i hav to face. And thankfully, i feel that i am closer to god for only he knows whats best for me. I just need to remember that god will not give a burden that is greater than what one can bear. This will help me move on, bounce up and come out stronger than before.

ToOdlEs

and back

2008-02-11T02:25:00.000+01:00

hello world.

yes my trip is over. *weeps
im missing paris already.

and so .. the reality begins once again. *sighs

stories and pics will be up soon .. i'll try ASAP

tOodlEs

and it arrives

2008-02-07T00:56:00.000+01:00

Goodbye luzern, Hello Paris ..

the short trip

2008-02-05T15:15:00.000+01:00

Woke up super early today juz to head out to Geneva. Needed to get our paris train tix at the train's HQ coz there were some hiccups to our bookings. Anyhoos, total time taken to Geneva was 3hrs!! but it didnt reali felt that long. haa~

Missed the 1410 train back to luzern so here we (me & julz) are sitting at McD trying to do our dissertation Chap 1. Since we have free 1/2hr internet access, might as well blog for a while. waha~

Wanted to find the UN HQ here but i hav no freaking idea where it is. The onli coolest thing we saw as the world's biggest fountain ever!!! More or less Geneva is like luzern cum france. Everyone here speaks French instead of German and they cant reali understand English. *faints. Me and julz are totally lost earlier and asking around doesnt help. lolz

pics taken today will be post up soon.

cant wait for thurs!! we changed the train timing to morning. wee~

tOodlEs

unexpected

2008-02-04T21:30:00.001+01:00

To geneva i go ...

the days

2008-02-03T12:14:00.000+01:00

FASNACHT IN LUZERN ..

the crowd!

the atmosphere

the crazy costumes

more crazy costumes

hansel & gretel wicked witch

the band

the messy floor

luzern at night

dinner!!!!

FASNACHT IN SCHOOL ...

the deco

mel,mich, mrs ross, shirine, julz, asy

the buffet

the chef - kx & haresh

with kitty cat & sailormoon .. hee~

with airstewardess & pirate

with elena & surene the witch

with mr currie wearing a big 'leaf' .. haha

the crowd

the band

more of the band

SNOW DAY ...

snow flakes!

the after effect

the pathway to sch

my footprints in the snow

catching snow

making snowballs

throwing snowballs

making mini snowman

our creation

eyeless and mouthless snowman

snowball fight

the war! hee~

On a seperate note, sometimes it's easy juz to keep to urself than say it out loud. As they say, patience is a virtue. And sometimes, you should be the one to back off.

ToodlEs

Fasnacht and snow

2008-02-02T20:07:00.000+01:00

Fasnacht started on thursday and it's the day when the swiss ppl will go crazy. It will go on for a few days and more or less it's like haloween. hee~ everyone (young and old) will dressed up in crazy costumes and bands will play non stop and ppl will dance in the streets, drink, eat and be merry. On that thursday, the festival supposedly to start at 4am but we were awaken at 7am wen there were fireworks suddenly 'exploded' just outside our window followed by bands started banging on drums and blowing their trumpets. haha~ to think i only slept at 2am.

That same day, we (me, audrey, julz, kx, patrick and norman) headed out to bahnhof to expose ourself to the fasnacht atmosphere. All shops were closed and the streets were filled with alot of confetti that you cant even see the road or pathway. And yes i got 'attacked' by paper confetti while walking. Suddenly someone tapped me from the back and as i turned, he threw a handful of confetti at my face. I was shocked but ignored it coz that was suppose to happen. hahaha. Had McD for dinner (it's so ex lahhhh) but the fries as agreed by all who tried said it was much much yummy-ier. lolz

The next day was a busybusybusy day. After class, rushed to see Mr Currie coz he's helping us book the train tix and hotel room for us. SOOOO it's official. IM GOING TO PARIS!!! weee~ and after all that, went to the dining hall coz we, the events team have to set up for the fasnacht celebration thats coming to school in the evening. Took about 3hrs to put up all the deco, re-arrange the tables and chairs and all that other stuff and then rushed back to Hotel Pilatus and changed. I didnt kno most of our schmates gona be wearing cool, crazy, fun costumes. so the best i could do was dress in bright yellow shirt and tie a scarf on my head. Wen dinner starts and soon the 10 or was it 12 piece band came, the whole dining area became chaotic in a fun way with ppl clapping to the tempo and dance to the music incld me. haha. Had super lots of fun.

Then today .... it snowed!!! for the first time after waiting patiently for it. My roomie diba suddenly woke me up at 7am coz she saw everything outside was covered with snow. so on our way to sch for brunch took alotalot of pics!! hee~ we were very 'jakun' lahhh .. hahaha. after brunch, it started to rain snow again. so me, audrey, diba and julz decided to take a walk to the lake but halfway down, we stopped to the middle of snow covered field and started to make mini snowman!! hee~ but instead of walking to the lake soon after that, we turned back to sch coz there was a toilet emergency. While waiting, we had a snowball fight with some guys who were there and ended up continuing the 'fight' instead of going to where we planned to. hahaha~

Just this week itself, i truly enjoyed myself lots!! hostel life far away from home isnt that bad after all. but im still looking forward to paris ... here i come!!

pics will be up soon!

Toodles

and al-fateha to my arwah datuk. i found out from sis that he died early this morning in Perak. Im really gona miss him.

white and beautiful

2008-02-02T12:05:00.000+01:00

IT'S SNOWING!!!!! wee~

alone or independent

2008-01-29T20:33:00.000+01:00

One can never appreciate punctuality untill you live in Swiss. No doubt that being the manufacturers of the famous Swatch watches that everything will happen right on the dot. The buses comes exactly that they're suppose to. Classes starts on time and even a min late means you're VERY LATE. *faints
However, it's a good habit to adopt even wen i return. hee~

Anyhoos, got my dissertation proposal back and sadly i didnt fare as well as i hope i will. *weeps .. and i got CAB as my tutor. im still deciding if it's a good or a bad thing. i juz hope that whatever the circumstances will be, i will score for this. Insyallah i will.

Woke up super early today for the breakfast duty. My duty finally starts this week. I juz wanna get it done and over with. And now, im super tired. My eyes are super heavy and i feel i wanna sleep and dissapear for a while untill im back to being Asy. Been a week plus since i last spoke to mum and been trying to call her for the past two days but she doesnt ans. haiz .. ohwells. i should learn how to live without my family close by 24/7.

okie back to work. marketing project due in 2 weeks time. *faints

tOodlEs

the changing

2008-01-25T22:36:00.000+01:00

After weeks and weeks of yes and no and alot of confusion, i finally moved to Hotel Pilatus in the village in the afternoon. And diba is my new roomie. As much funny crazy times i had with my old roomie, moving was wat i gota do despite the travelling time to school. The room is bigger now and i dont feel being stuck in school 24/7. And there's a bathroom (not just a toilet) in the room. However i will really miss the peepz there whom im close to. (will still get to see em' during classes, lunches and dinners. but it will be different). and no more late night supper at the villa nor the daily trips to the lake that i usually take. ohwells .. waha~

Tmr will be a busy day. Will be waking up early for part grocery shopping, den brunch in school den to bahnhof for necessity shopping den cooking dinner in Hotel Pilatus. hee~

Im sort of unpacked my stuff .. still needs to make the room homey and getting used to the idea of re-adjusting again. but so far im loving it. hee~

Pictures will be up soon ..

tOodlEs

to paris i go?

midnight snack

2008-01-23T01:10:00.000+01:00

swiss time check: 1.10am

and i juz got back. haha

went for a midnight snack with diba and danial at the villa. and it's freezing cold out there! but the night was beautiful. It wasnt as dark as i had expected. The full moon was shining so brightly as if it was a spotlight guiding us the way and the stars was oh so alot. if only i could catch the entire scenery in a camera. it will be picture perfect.

It was also for me to take a break from writing up my proposal. I was so frustrated coz i cldnt get the stuff i needed to write for my background. And actually before diba asked me along, i was thinking of taking a walk myself. haha~

so now back to proposal-ing before catching up with my beauty sleep.

Good morning Singapore. waha~

tOodlEs

bring it on

2008-01-20T14:22:00.000+01:00

It's a beautiful, sunny sunday afternoon and here i am stuck in the library trying my hardest to finish writing my dissertation proposal. No more procastinating coz i've been doing so the past two days. And with the deadline coming in the about 4 days i am more or less dead. waha~

If anyone is wondering (which i doubt) my dissertation topic will be on arts tourism (no surprise there huh). More precisely the topic will be Branding Singapore as an arts hub of SEA. and the best part of doing such topic here is there is no info on arts in Singapore here nor any books on arts tourism. aRgHhh .. im so gona ask Mr Caldwell to buy this book that i found online ...

And yest, ard 3.30pm, went to the lake by myself. I neeeded to get out for a walk. It was okie that no one wanted to go coz it gav me a me moment to myself. And at night, crazy me and diba decided to go to the villa (a distance away from sch) to do our laundry. waha~ we do hav laundry facilties in campus itself but i think we were too bored staying at our rooms too much .. haa~

Woke i should stop blogging and start dissertating ..

p/s and irritating visiting ppl finally left this morning!! *jumps for joy!

tOodlEs

the weekends

2008-01-19T00:26:00.000+01:00

After friday's last lesson, my brain juice finally dried up. I was mentally exhausted that im determined not to touch any of my school work for the rest of the day. And so, me, brainy, julz, diba and kx decided to go down to luzern bahnhof (city center). Met damian and gordon whose goin the same way and so 7 of us went ard town to window shop. It was a breath of fresh air to finally get out of school. Living in school juz kills the life outta me. haa~ thank god im moving to Hotel Pilatus in the village soon. Will update on this.

Anyhoos, walking ard Luzern juz gives me this sense of peace somehow by being able to see the beautiful structures and landscapes of mountains. I juz love looking at nature and marvel at god's creation. Anyhoos, as much as it have been challenging in one way or another but im thankful for each day that im blessed with.

If you're wondering why this sudden post of reflecting, today will be 10th muharram on the Islamic calender. Or the day better known as Hari Asyurah (Asyurah Day). Yup im born on this day and hence my name. This day is one of the most important and special day for Islam with alot of great historical events happenings.
Some of which are:- (sori it's in malay. u can ask me to translate though)
1. Nabi Adam bertaubat kepada Allah.
2. Nabi Idris diangkat oleh Allah ke langit.
3. Nabi Nuh diselamatkan Allah keluar dari perahunya sesudah bumi ditenggelamkan selama enam bulan.
4. Nabi Ibrahim diselamatkan Allah dari pembakaran Raja Namrud.
5. Allah menurunkan kitab Taurat kepada Nabi Musa.
6. Nabi Yusuf dibebaskan dari penjara.
7. Penglihatan Nabi Yaakob yang kabur dipulihkkan Allah.
8. Nabi Ayub dipulihkan Allah dari penyakit kulit yang dideritainya.
9. Nabi Yunus selamat keluar dari perut ikan paus setelah berada di dalamnya selama 40 hari 40 malam.
10. Laut Merah terbelah dua untuk menyelamatkan Nabi Musa dan pengikutnya dari tentera Firaun.
11. Kesalahan Nabi Daud diampuni Allah.
12. Nabi Sulaiman dikurniakan Allah kerajaan yang besar.
13. Hari pertama Allah menciptakan alam.
14. Hari Pertama Allah menurunkan rahmat.
15. Hari pertama Allah menurunkan hujan.
16. Allah menjadikan 'Arasy.
17. Allah menjadikan Luh Mahfuz.
18. Allah menjadikan alam.
19. Allah menjadikan Malaikat Jibril.
20. Nabi Isa diangkat ke langit.

Time now is 2.30am swiss time.

Toodles

the inner voice

2008-01-17T17:22:00.000+01:00

i juz love the little motivational cum advices that friendster horoscope gives:

If you are looking for some help you develop your self-discipline, then you need only look in the mirror. No one can control you as well as you can control yourself, so stop looking for outside solutions for your inner issues. You (obviously) have a vested interest in how you develop as a person, so you have to focus on helping yourself develop. That little voice inside of you knows what is good for you and what is not good for you, so listen to it.

*grins

And i might be moving to the village soon ..

tOodlEs

The hectic-ness

2008-01-15T22:40:00.000+01:00

It's just week 2 of school and everyone's already feeling the pressure! haix .. Other than trying to confirm on the topic for our dissertation with established the aim, objectives, hypothesis and everything that needs to be handed in for the proposal, there's the case studies plus all the reading for int'l mkting plus the news reporting plus the hotel research-ing .. aRghHh .. this is juz the beginning and i feel as if i've run half the race full speed ..

As much i know what i wana do for my dissertation, im still lost. *weeps

i've been missing home. i've never been far away from home for so long. There's always the comfort of hanging out with my siblings esp my elder sis for juz dinner or a movie. i miss the luxury to juz hang out till late at night and still go home safe and in the comfort of your love ones. i miss waking up and see my mum's presence and be able to talk to her about almost anything. I even misses the time i fight with my youngest siblings. And there's always mum around for me to tell her how i am feeling. For now and most of the time i have to play pretend. As much as it's a practice for the service industry but i'll be great to have someone you can let your secrets out to. You cant imagine the skeletons i have hidding in my cupboard. No not the kind of dark secrets that will hunt and kill you down but it's just burdens that i wish to share. Ohwells ... i'll leave the cupboard lock and safely hidden for now i guess. lets play pretend! hahaha~

Right now im procastinating myself from reading the int'l marketing textbook .. some one read for me and juz tell me the facts i need to know! plsss .. hahaha ..

toOdleS

'mA toUts'

As i feel my heart beats fast
I wished i was at the comfort of home
I wish that mum was right beside
To tell me it's gona be alright

As i feel my body's giving up
I lift my hands for guidance
And pray that i could last this challenge
The one thing i hope i can achieve

the long awaited pictures

2008-01-13T12:41:00.000+01:00

Enjoy the pics of my stay here thus far!!

First off ..

the view from my room.

Mt. Pilatus!

my bed

the toilet in my room .. bathroom gota share though. hee~

the tv in front of my bed. mostly the channels are in german. waha

AT THE AIRPORT. THE DAY I FLY. ..

Relatives from mum and dad side

The peepz that sent me off..

aud, me, julz and damian in transit

ARRIVING IN SWITZERLAND

Arriving in sch!

At zurich airport

Diba and me with big sandwitch, yummy prezels and hot choc!

BIG pretzels

View of luzern

It has already snowed!!

Our first brunch

Ducks and swans

b-e-a-utiful views!

breathtaking!

There's cows beside my sch!

Luzern town!

TO ZURICH!

At the railway station

The train

The streets

On the street

I saw a big big bear!!!

Outside the train station

On the train

GOING TO LAKE LUZERN

On the way

The scenery

The lake and mountain ..

Audrey and me

Lake Luzern

Everyone!

TO HALAL SHOP AND MOSQUE IN LUZERN

The shop that sells halal meat

The store

Things me and diba bought

The mosque

Entrance to guys musollah

Ladies lounge

View of the ladies musollah

Ladies musollah

Ladies musollah2

The library in the mosque. Thats the guy that took us ard.

Rearranging the books

Impressive

Guys musollah

The view of the ceiling of the mosque

This is more or less the pics i've taken.. more to come i guez .. waha!

tOodlEs

2008-01-09T23:51:00.000+01:00

I know this should be a post with pictures i promised to show. However, i've yet to collate everything from everyone and organising it before i could post a complete set of everything. haa~ so enjoy the continuation of my story on life in Luzern for now. *grins

School had finally started. Business suit everyday but im getting used to it. Even the heels that i gota wear too. waha. Monday was an induction to most lecturers and the sch's rules and regulation. After everything plus ID making and sch book collection we (me, brainy, julz, diba, mich, gordon, damian and kx) planned to head down to lake luzern which is juz behind our school since we ended early. Fun fun fun!!

Classes offically started the next day. 4hrs of Applied Research plus thinking of our dissertation topic. I can gladly say i've tout of mine. Hopefully it'll turn out great. wee~ Since classes ended by 12pm, after lunch me, audrey, julz, mich and diba headed out to Pilatus Mart for some grocery shopping. After hanging out there for a while, we concluded to walk to the village instead and head out to Denner to get em'. Bumped into Stanley and Jo who brought us to where we wana go and once again dropped by Hotel Pilatus. I totally love that place lahh .. If got room i dont mind moving. hmmm .. but it's more convenient staying in sch's campus! ArGhHh .. the dilemma! oHwellS ..

And today, after dinner went for yoga. waha~ Since i think i dont exercise that much, yoga is the best alternative. And i must say not onli it was fun but i had the workout i need .. more than i need! hahaha .. i can feel my muscles trembling in slight pain. (and i still cant balance on one feet! aRgh) The teacher is so strong lahhh .. she can actually balance her body just from the strength of her arms! *faints .. anyhoos, as tiring as it is, i enjoyed the short 2hrs session.

Busy days, weeks and months up ahead. Will try to post pictures soon. hee~

*im getting used to the 'creepy' bathroom that i gota use. waha~

tOodlEs

im here

2008-01-03T22:45:00.000+01:00

Should have posted this a few days ago. But it had reali been a busy 3 days since i arrived. Anyhoos, prepare for a very long post below. Pictures will be posted up in the next post. Enjoy! haa~

Was reali touched for all who came to sent me off. Surprisingly, some of my relatives from dad side came. Been years since i last saw them. Anyhoos, it was espacially nice for nad z, khai, ain, rad and sue to come down too!!HUGZ
Since my flight was delayed an hour, by 12midnight, most of them had to go off. My family stayed till it was time to go into transit. And wen i started hugging mum and my siblings, i was holding back my tears and trying not to let my voice shake. In the transit area, me, audrey, julz and diba started to tear. It was already the day to leave them for a year. *weeps

I finally reach Swiss safe and on time. Touched down around 7.45am swiss time (spore is 7 hrs ahead). Prepared myself for the upcoming cold weather (-3degrees) that im gona face but surprisingly, the first blast of cold air on my face was refreshing. And i was amazed to see my breath as i breath out. hahaha. Anyhoos, my trip on board the 12.5hrs flight was tiring. very tiring. At one point of time couldnt feel my legs! but the two strangers beside me was nice. DId chatted with them abit. =) At the airport, an IMI bus was waiting for us to bring us to school. The 1hr journey on the road was b-e-a-utiful. The scenery, the calmness of it all awed me. By the time we reached school it seems as though the tempreture got colder.

After checking-in, sort of rested and sort of packing, had our orientation that even bought us to luzern city centre. By the way, my room is quite small. still it's cozy. And my roomie is a hongkie. yup she's nice. thank god. haa~ Anyway, at luzern city centre, we decided to explore the area by ourselves and we ended up in the Old Town and shopping for groceries at Migros (pronounced as Mee Gro). Everything was superbly scenic and wonderful. Feels as if im in the middle ages. The only thing missing are princesses, princes and knights on horses. hahaha.

After alot of walking around, headed back to the 'interchange' to catch the 5.45pm bus home. By that time it was already dark as if it's 9pm! Speaking of the buses, it is always on time. Even if you're late for 1sec, you gota wait for the next bus which is usually 1/2hr (15min during peak hour)!

The next day, most of my classmates decided to go to zurich. And so, went along coz it's better to travel in big groups. The train ride was an hour but the train was oh so comfy (since we paid alot for it.. haha) Arriving there we split into smaller group and as usual i went along with brainy, julz and diba. The shops there reali sell very very very nice clothes and the prices are not bad! as usual, i got hungry again (im eating so much now!!) so we stopped at a cafe cum restaurant cum bar to get sandwitches and hot choco. There we met a msian guy who works there. We made frens with him and he says if we drop by zurich again, he'll bring us around (he says there's alot of sporean living in swiss!!) After alotalotalot of walking and browsing, met up with the big group around 5pm. As usual, it was already dark and the weather was getting colder. Since we couldnt make it on time for dinner in school, some of them stayed in luzern to eat while me, brainy, angie and mich we went the a place nearby sch (which we call the 1,2,3 shops) for dinner and to check out things there. And the quich there is super super big!!! for CHF5+ it was worth it as it also comes along with a serving of salad. yumyum.

And yesterday, since it was saturday and all shops tend to close at 12pm, me, brainy and jul woke up early and meet at 8.30am to head down to luzern city center by ourselves. We're getting used to walking around there i guess. But wen we wanted to head back to sch in time for brunch, we missed the bus at 11am by 1 sec!! and it left without us. *weep .. so we had to wait for another 1/2hr!! *lesson learnt the hard way .. haha. Luckily i had prezels if not i be super hungry!
On the way back, met some classmates who lived in the village. So me and julz decided to follow them to see their crib. And we were extremely impressed!! Mayb me, julz and brainy will move there if there is any available room. hee~

And today, sunday, everywhere is closed!! (there reali isnt any life here!!) so mayb later going to the lake and prepare all my sch stuff for tmr. So far im adjusting well to the place. Except sometimes the cold is too cold!! I have dry skin, chapped lips and my fingers and toes are always frozen!! Nonetheless, i prefer the weather here than always sweating in spore! waha~

Stay tune for updates of pics!!!

tOodlEs!!

toodles

2008-01-02T03:54:00.000+01:00

Yesterday was a blast! Will post up pics once i get them.

Today is already the day. Flying off tonight. To be exact tomorrow at 1am.

Goodbye dearest family and frens.

Goodbye Singapore.

tOodlEs

another year

2008-01-01T07:56:00.001+01:00

Welcome 2008!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

A new chapter will soon unfolds for me as this year starts crawling in.

Unlike last year where i was stuck at Marina Bay, decided to stay home on new year's eve and countdown to the end of 2007 with my family.

Will be going to a family gathering later. So shall update more tonight.

Anyhoos, flight details to whomever wanna know is as follows:-
SQ346 @ Terminal 2
Check in time: 11pm (whoever by between 9.30-10pm i wld already be at the airport)

tOodlEs

frens .. one can never live without

2007-12-27T18:05:00.000+01:00

A dinner date with Ms J.D turned out to be a group outing with the bestest peepz i know. First Rad and Azm suddenly appear out of no where and then there were two more VIPs that we were waiting for. I tried guessing who but got it wrong. haha. In the end, it turned out to be Nad Z and Khai.
I didnt realise they were planning it! It was nicest surprise and i reali felt loved. Awww .. It's wonderful to know that you have great frens like them. *grins very wide

The more outings i have with frens the more i feel reluctant to leave. Just hope that by the time i get back, they do still remember me. haa~ well who can ever forget dearest Asy. lolz

Counting down to 5 more days before my last goodbye. And i have not yet finish packing!!

Anyhoos, pics of outings as promised. Enjoy!!

Sup tulang day with elder sis!!
(will get the original pic from her when she gets back)

Ayam Penyet day with yonger sis!!

Nasi Pattaya day with pri sch mates ..

Fish & Co. day with peiling and hui ying
(we were too hungry that i forgot to take food pics!!)

Lau Pa Sat day with Ms Suli .. hee

Pizza Hut-ing with fate and fang an

Surprise dinner date with part Nadi peepz ..

while waiting for the VIPs .. hee

reading baby blues is a great way to kill time

frm left: me, rad, azm, julie, nad z and khai

ToOdleS

MERRY XMAS!!!

2007-12-24T19:42:00.000+01:00

a christmas tree is only perfect with a star on top*

Been some time since my last update. it had been a busy week. with hari raya haji and meet ups with 3 different grps of poly frens, im afraid it's already ended. With the end of all this only means that my time to fly is soon approaching. wats left is my dinner date with Ms J.D and the gathering aka kenduri with mum side of the family.

And whatever i plan to eat before i leave is done. wee~

My past posts have been talking too much on me flying and my excitment and fear of doing so. As much as i want to post on other topics but i cant help it. This is a major life turning experience. So dont mind me. haa~

Finally started on my packing yesterday. I have 2 large baggage to check in and 1 mini baggage to bring on board. But right now im stuck. cant seem to fit everything in! Though it seems that i might be bringing too much but somehow i feel i dont bring enuf! oHmAnn ..Think in the end i have to forgo some stuff and clothes .. just hope that my baggages doesnt exceed 40kg.

Right now, my touts are in a mess. the tout of leaving in a week's time as much as it's exciting, im very afraid. I know this is a learning experience that i have to embrace. still, the tout of growing up alone in a foreign country scares me.

tOodlEs

*pics on my meet-ups with frens will be posted up after my date with Ms J.D

it's almost time

2007-12-18T11:03:00.000+01:00

Sis is flying off in a few hours time. And as i start counting the days im left, surprisingly i only have less than 14 more days. As the days come nearer, im starting to get very afraid of leaving. The tout of abandoning my comfort zone to a new environment without close frens and family nearby reali scares me alot. I will be strong. i will not cry wen the time comes but i cant promise that i will not break down once im inside the transit area. what hav a gotten myself into? but insyallah i will get tru this. insyallah i will make my family proud - for dad's unachievable dream, for sis delayed plans to contd studying and mum's sacrifices thus far.

On a more brighter note, congrates to my 4th bro Aiman for his outstanding N level results!! He got 3 grade one and 3 grade two. wOohOo .. AND He's the top pupil in Normal Tech Stream in his school and also being the best in Eng language. Im so proud of him!!!

toodles o_O

farewell dinner

2007-12-16T09:55:00.000+01:00

As much as i love organising, planning and putting up events and gatherings, sometimes i wonder how it'll feel like for once if someone would plan something nice for me instead. and yesterday, when the role reversed, it felt wonderfully great and special. Thxs lots mas and nokz. you both are the best!

Met the pri sch peepz for a farewell dinner that they've planned for me at Sukara buffet in town. i didnt expected any other than juz dinner and the usual fun and crazy time we'll always have wen we meet. But i was surprised wen they gave me this huge card and a prezie too. On one side of the big card was a huge picture of me while the other, there's was the words written 'TAKE CARE ASY' and also short messages from each of them girls - mas, nokz, emma, mesa and rashidah. i was trying not to cry. haha. the prezie that they gave was wrapped in lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of magazine pages. When i finally got to the end, i started laughing. hee~ (look at the pics below to know why). im so glad after years of being apart, we finally met up and got close with each other. i will reali going to miss them girls alot!! esp the outing 3 of us always have *winkswinks. hee~ i will def bring and remember the memories we share always.

i am definitely touched. thank you so much. love u girls!!

look wat they got me. =)

after layers and layers of magazines

ta-da!! hee~

cam-whoring

peace!

love them girls!! (mas,emma,nuraini & me)

yummy foodie!!

tOodlEs

the memories that will last a lifetime

2007-12-16T09:37:00.000+01:00

As i look back at the video, it made me cry with happiness as i remembered all the great, fun and crazy things we did together. you girls are the bestest girlfrens and i will truly always miss you. *weeps
Thanks mas & nOkz for the wonderful time we 3 always had together. xoxo

tOodlEs

when suddenly you realise

2007-12-14T16:20:00.000+01:00

Wanted a change but sticking to the same theme. Sunflowers juz makes me happy. roses are nice, lilies are sweet but sunflower apart that it is yellow, it blooms of hope.

Met the secondary sch peepz yesterday for my long awaited Nasi Pattaya at Spize. As usual, there was onli me, nat and muni which was enuf to bring the house down. haha. We went all the way to the one at Rivervalley as im not keen going to the one at Sempang Bedok. As usual the food didnt disappoint me but alas the serving was too big that i cldnt finish it.

been trying to live one day at a time. but everytime i tried, i get worried. i cant live not knowing what will i be doing tmr or the following week and where i will be heading to the next few months. i know that things will not always go as planned but the tout of nothing is written down in my daily planner juz kills me. i should reali learn the art of doing nothing. dont get me wrong .. i love doing nothing. just slack the day away. rainy days are the best time to do so esp wen i've been having busy weeks and days before. one week is adequately sufficient for me. too much of slacking tires me. too much of slacking will make me feel unaccomplished.

truthfully, im not sure if i will see the next 20 years of my life. knowing that it can happen anytime just scares me as i might not accomplish things i wana do in life. i wondered how dad coped with it. the pain, the breathlessness, the feeling of slight inferiority. he was stronger than me - much much stronger. he was and always be my hero.

Anyway, after saying this out loud that i start believing. A company that judge me on what i wear than on my accomplishments, abilities and talent is not a company worth working for. And holding strong to my belief, values and faith, i know that the path that i will land will be worth waiting and fighting for.

half a month more to go before a new chapter unfolds.

tOodlEs

muni, nat & me

broke and burned

2007-12-12T16:12:00.000+01:00

It's already the middle of Dec. gosh how time actually zooms past. Im finally finally done with shopping. All the stuff that i need in my 'have to buy for swiss' list is completed. wee~ and ive spend more than ive budgeted for .. so im officially terribly broke. been dragging my youngest sis ard to hunt all the remaining stuffs - vivoing and orchardroading .. fun-ness! but mayb not to her as she had to wait for me for so long to choose and try all the stuffs im getting. hee~

Now it's the time for cleaning up and packing. cant procrastinate any longer. haiz.

Since most english tv series are on hiatus, been watching korean drama series for hours and hours each days. haha .. yes im hooked to them once again.

Other than watching way too much tv, been making christmas cum goodbye prezie for frens that im meeting up this whole month. will post up pictures (browse below to take a peek) once i've given it to all of them. it's nothing big. juz something im good at. *grins

will be a busy week next week. cant wait for kambeng visiting. waha

tOodlEs

guess wats this. =)

About Islam

2007-12-08T18:42:00.001+01:00

It's interesting how she, Karen Armstrong is able to provide unbiased and insightful information on Islam. Take a look on her interview regarding the book (ISLAM - a short history) that she wrote.

-part 1-

-part 2-

-part 3-

tOodlEs

mood swings

2007-12-05T20:15:00.000+01:00

Im having a terrible terrible mood swing today. As i stare at myself in the mirror, there was so much rage in my eyes. Hated myself for scolding my youngest sis and snapping at my youngest bro esp wen he's helping me to bake. haix .. i tried to control this mixed emotions but it comes out as me being absolutely cold and distant. can't be that it is due to my period as i last had it a week ago and i dont expect it to come for about 2 weeks time. aRgHhh!! i just cant explain where does all this anger comes from. mayb it might be due to the fact that in less than a month time i will not be seeing them for a year. i should be feeling sad and try to spent more time with them instead of picking up a fight. mayb im afraid i might miss fighting with my siblings. haha .. call me crazy if you must. haiz. as much as sometimes they annoy the hell outta me, i will really truly miss my family alot. dont tell me im feeling home sick when im not even there yet. lolz

Right now im putting my packing on haitus untill after hari raya haji. yes im procastinating but packing = leaving soon which i am not ready to face yet. funnie when i was in poly, i was planning to study overseas for a degree education and when now i have the chance, im afraid to do so.

For the rest of this month, my plans will be:-
6/12: beach road sup tulang with sis
8/12: K-Ok with nokz and mas
10/12: to winnings to get my long john and ayam penyet with sisters
11/12: vivo-ing for jeans and white shirts
13/12: Spize-ing at rivervalley with sec sch peepz
15/12: dinner date with pri sch frens
18/12: sent sis to airport (she's goin germany & london)
19/12: baking day with mum
20/12: HARI RAYA HAJI!
21/12: meeting peiling and huiying (movie & dinner)
22/12: meeting brainy, su and nadia (movie & lau pa sat)
23/12: meeting fate and fang an (bowling & dinner)
25/12: CHRISTMAS!
27/12 or 28/12: dinner date with Ms J.D
31/12: pick up sis from the airport

anymore bookings do look at the dates that are not mentioned. haha ..

time check: 3.40am

i still need to wait till 530am. im paying back my fasting. 7 more days in the month of ramadan that i skipped and additional 2 more days that i promise i will fast if i get at least a B for my exams. so 1 down and 9 more days to go.

practically, i've watched all the current episods of alot of tv series that i missed and right now im falling in love with Moonlight. =)

tv here i come to help me kill time. *yawns

tOodlEs

reali gota fly

2007-11-30T18:44:00.000+01:00

Results were released at 5pm today while i was busy shopping at the John Little Mega Expo Sale (actually wanted to go for just the Sitex show but since the sale was next door, it was extremely tempting. haha). Once i got home, put down my stuff and head towards the computer to check it out out. As soon as i glanced tru, i started jumping for joy and mum joined in. Though it mayb not be the best of the best results but im glad i could achieve wat i did and hoping mum was proud of me. If ur asking how much i got, i scored 3 As and 3 Bs!! wOohOo .. i never got so much As before! Alhamdulillah i did well *feeling over the moon
Hopefully i can do better wen im in Swiss.

And from my 8 i want/have to do list, im going LauPaSat with the poly frens, Spize with the secondary sch peepz and Beach Road with dearest elder sis. Mayb ayam penyet with younger sis. hee~

Meeting mas and nokz today for vivo shopping was total fun-ness. With alot of crazy moments and laughter till you cry scenes. haha. seeing them again next week for K-Ok .. haha. wee~ it's so weird wen the past 10years we never hang out or even contact each other. wen suddenly one day after the at the spur of the moment meet, (coz i was so bored at that time and suddenly tout of meeting the pri sch peepz) we now at least meet up once a month. And its never awkward but always filled with lots of crazy fun moments. *grins

i juz love the frens meet-ups. more to come this month!! cant wait!

reality check: one more month left in spore! *gasps!

lost and found

2007-11-27T17:03:00.000+01:00

I didnt realise i've kept so many of my old stuff. found 2 of my very old diary which i started writing when i was in sec one. mostly my teenage angst and my so called happiest days of my life. haha. as i read on, episodes of my past life came flashing back. all in all, everything was bittersweet which im glad i've passed tru.

This past few days, been sleeping late and wake up much later. the only cleaning so far ive done was rearranging only 1/2 of my cupboard. i still have lots do clear off but i dont find the motivation to do so right now. mayb im afraid that if i actually finish off clearing and packing, reality will soon sink in that im flying off soon for a year. im not prepared to face that reality yet.

i still hav lots of my do list before end of dec. i want to:-
1) go Lau Pa Sat and eat yummy satay and stingray and bbq chix
2) go lucky plaza eat ayam penyet
3) go watch songs of the sea
4) hang out one last time at the Esplanade
5) chill out at the starbucks at One Fullerton
6) go beach road for sup tulang
7) go Spize for the nasi pattaya
8) go Ben & Jerry at Raffles City Shopping Center

though there's more, but this will be my top 8 things to do (not in order). anyone wana go with me? pls pls pls beep me. seems most of my to do list consist of food. haha. im so gona miss spore food alotalot there.
so many things to do, so little time.

cant wait for coming of dec. gona be meeting my pri sch babes 3 times in that month! meeting Ms J.D, meeting weirdy, lil mermaid and cha2, meeting the poly frens and meeting sophs & yana.
anyone wana go countdown with me this yr?? hee~

as much as there is alot on my mind, i dont know wat to write. with all this free time leaves me too much time to think bout everything. and then comes the worrying about nothing.
i juz want to fall into a deep dreamless long sleep so i do not need to think and worry too much and drawing up pictures of the different scenarios that life will take me. mayb i should go back to reading once again to get lost in a world of fantasy.

tOodlEs

wat i found

2007-11-24T17:05:00.000+01:00

While cleaning up my stuff to put in boxes, found this:-

the 3 pentas-es that i was involved in.

lights designer to floor manager to asst. stage manager.
those were the days mann .. reali miss those time.
just looking at the brochures brings about alot of wonderful memories.
3 years in poly do fly fast.

an add to my collection. =)

Anyhoos, yest (fri) went back TP to meet up with them Nadi-ans. It was their formal meeting for a post pentas feedback session. and yes i gave them my comments and touts of the last pentas. Juz want u guys to take note of the things i've highlighted and improve for the future productions. doing that was a closure for me to know that Nadi will be in good hands as i fly away from Spore soon.

And as usual, when all Nadi peepz meet, everyone will go crazy (in a good way). Yes i reali reali miss those time. but life have to move on and change is never constant. so as i look back to the great time i had once upon a time, i will look forward to new experiences to enjoy.

im booked on the 8th and 15th dec with them pri sch frens!! wee~ anymore bookings? hahaha

tOodlEs

the bags

2007-11-23T08:37:00.000+01:00

wee~ wat more can i say. more to come i guess.

(ignore the panadol for cold .. shdnt be in the pic! waha)

thxs brainy for a great shopping day out. hee~ love my winter coat!! mayb will post the pic of it but as always seeing my money goes out from my bank, is like die-ing a slow and painful death. haa~

tOodlEs

the start of 'kemas'ing

2007-11-21T15:10:00.000+01:00

finally my plans starts kicking in yesterday. went IKEA-ing with my youngest sis and bro coz i need to get boxes to keep all my stuff in for a year. waha. didnt realise i took so much stuff until i had to pay them. waha. see wat i bought:-

we got 3 of those IKEA paper bags full of stuffs!!

see the amt of boxes i end up buying. lolz

den i finally bought my boots!! wee~
actually it was out of stock for quite some time. for my size that is. it's so hard to get sizes above 42!! so many small feet ppl in spore! aRGhh .. waha. anyway, it was when i was out with julz and azm. Since we're passing into raffles city shopping ctr, i tout of trying my luck to see if the new stock came. and it juz arrived!!! after much debate and persuasion frm the two, i finally bought it!! yay!! i got my high cut boots to wear there. exciting!!

my lovely boots! waha

cant wait for tmr. more retail therapy to come with brainy. this time for winter clothes!! but seeing my ka-ching fly away every time i go out breaks my heart .. well, it's not everyday that i shop. i barely shop unless necessary. and the stuff im buying now is my necessity. hahaha .. okie i've done convincing myself so im feeling less guilty now. haha.

okie i've gone crazy. muz be too much tv. haa~

tOodlEs

wen time passes this slow

2007-11-18T14:52:00.000+01:00

i cant believe that i've been waking up near to noon, watched tv practically the whole day without felling any guilt! waha. now, im bored to death. but i've yet to clean up all my stuff and pack all the impt things i need to bring. however right now, i got no mood to do anything. cant wait for retail therapy soon. waha ..

wen i re-read my previous post, i feel i was expecting too much and too strict on my dearest production peepz. without much help from any seniors, due to SIP and alumnis, due to werk, exams & NS, they reali have done their best which im proud of. Their commitment and bond amongst each other do put a huge smile on my face as i kno that in the coming future, nadi-ians will be much much better off. i salute their bravery and willingness to learn and try. HUGS. Amidst some mistakes that was bound to happen in any productions, you guys still made it tru and im proud of every single one of u guys.

Okie back to rotting my final weeks away. haha

tOddLes

over. beginning. hiccups

2007-11-16T19:06:00.000+01:00

The last exams paper ended thursday and i think after the 2hrs of writing non stop, my hands finally went on strike. literally that is. haha .. hopefully, all the endless studying will pay off. anyway, im left with only about 6 weeks here. part of me cant wait to leave and another doesnt want to. but no matter what, i am. i pray i can be strong physically and mentally. growing up IS scary. a journey i didnt expect to encounter this soon. haha

in my have to meet people list:-

the poly mates: su, nad, hy, peiling, fang an, fate and di
the pri sch peepz: mas, nokz, emma, mesa, shida
the others: elisa, sophie & liyana

The nadi gang was suppose to be in. but since i've seen them during pentas, i guez it's covered. haha.. i dont mind another meet though. *grins

speaking of which, before we went to the show itself, met azm first before heading to raffles city shopping center to meet juliee. and somehow, we ended up in Sentosa. waha. it was one hell of a crazy complicated ride. lolz. ended up being 2hrs late. sori sori sori julieee for making u wait .. spore is so small yet so big. but it was love meeting them both as usual. haa~

Overall, my touts of the production was erm .. a tad dissapointing. some items were impressive. but mostly my dissapointment was focused more to my production team. as i sat at the audience and seeing the obvious technical hiccups that could not be covered, i wished that it was only a rehearsals instead. Wont elaborate much. wana kno more of my comments, beep me. i juz hope that what we've fight for so long to achieve wont get flushed down the drain.

Anyhoos, my plans for the next few days, claim back all my sleepless and late nights from the past 6 months.

Till next entry. tOodlEs

my fault?

2007-11-12T13:42:00.000+01:00

~mA tHoutS~

My guilty conscience bugs me day and night
i somehow feel it was all because of me
My selfishness to achieve more than i already had
The burden it had cause to ppl whom i cared

I've stepped far ahead, ignoring the things that was happening
I was blinded by the darkness, from the bright light of the prize
Too late to look back but continue to move on as i carry the sense of guilt
I want to let it all go, i want to tell it off

I pray this will all be worth it
I pray it will all end with a good note
I pray when this is all over
I can look back and smile and will be glad i did so

But right now, at this current moment
Even the light on the prize starts to dim
Blocked by the others whose aiming the same
How can i get past, how can i succeed?

* a silent prayer

Dear god,

Im thankful for all that i've been blessed throughout my years i've lived. I try not to complain and if i do coz i am only human. I will always pray for a little bit of strength and a little bit of hope and faith to face each challenges that you gave me. I realise that you will not give a burden greater than what one can bear. But sometimes i feel i am not strong enough to face them without your help, without a touch of your guidance dear god. I come running to you now coz i am helpless and im at a state where i am clueless on how to move on. I know that my fate lies in your hands but i need to know the guilt i feel right now will it be worth it? I am not questioning but i just hope that the sacrifice that mum had to go through now will be the last she'll ever have to do for me. I want to repay her back every single thing that she'd done for me. I never ever want to see her suffer in silence or cry becoz of what she have to go through. I want her to be proud of me. I want her to know that i the purpose for me to this now is to crave a better future for me, her and our family. I dont want her to be too tired for though she might look strong i know she is holding on very hard to continue living. Her past 10 years bringing us up was hard enough, the past 10 years of sacrificing has taken a toll on her. Though i may not be the perfect daughter in her eyes, i want to try and i want to succeed for her sake, for dad's unfinished dreams and for sis broken dream. Dear god, the most gracious, the beneficient, the merciful the most generous, the one and only. I pray to you to bless me, my family and the road ahead that has been laid out for me. From you i become and to you i shall return.

pls pray that i'll score for my exams.

tOodlEs

the airport-ing

2007-11-10T09:22:00.000+01:00

Been visiting the airport quite frequently the past few days. No, im not THAT excited to leave Spore. haha .. After my lonely episode there, the next day mich joined. It was fun having her around. Love talking to her and hear her perspective on things. =)

harworking mich and taking a break me .. haha

den yest, had an all niter with another 3 crazy peepz - julz, damian and pat. 3 of us needed a tutor for FMHT and since the tutor can only make it at night, we decided to meet ard 9+pm at the airport and study the whole night there. We started our FMHT tuition bout 11pm (coz i came late-after my tuition) and ended everything bout 5am. and we successfully completed 4 chaps!!! and i actually finally understand!! AMAZING!!

Went home only after bfast and i reached home bout 730am and wen i woke up it was already 3pm!! time to start mugging for IHRM now.

tOodlEs

guess whose the tutor.. haha
from left: patrick, damian, julz, asy

looks like we're running away to Swiss ready. haha
yes Pat will be checked in as a luggage .. lolz

mug..mug..mugging

2007-11-07T11:59:00.001+01:00

it's already gona be the end of a wednesday and there's still much much much to study. I've covered MICE but i doubt i remembered anything. now im still 1/3 way through ROM and im planning to finish it by today!! oHnOoo .. sleepless night. if possible by friday i wana cover FMHT so by sat i'll be done with IHRM. SoOoOooo i have time to re-study again for MICE on sunday for monday morning paper. aRgHhhh ..

btw, i cant feel my hands due to the endless writing of notes!!! 'weeps-crying in pain'

Right now, i here all alone. cold and all by myself at the airport to study. My normal ritual when the study week is here but sadly without my study buddy. Anyone wana come and keep me company? haha ..
At least, sis is on her way here and we gona eat popeye!! yUmMmyY .. something to pick me up - wat else than food huh. hehe.

Back to mugging ..

tOodLes

my messy table full of notes

concentrating hard. hee~

my pri 3 tutee .. haha

nadi jalan raya

2007-11-04T06:40:00.000+01:00

It had been losta fun yest. reali miss seeing them nadi peepz. All are the seniors and alumni as the freshies and jr. have already went for their visiting weeks ago. Started the visiting ard 11.30am and they sent me to sch at 2pm for my last lesson for FMHT. joined them again at around 630pm. =) i think we spent about at least an hr at each other house. coz by the time i reach home was already 1145pm!! hee~ was reali hoping more people to join since i think this will be my last 'jalan raya' with them. ohwell ..

will let the pixs below contd telling my story.

in azm car

the stuffs

us girls: (from left) nad w, nad z, siti, rabz, asy and azm

them guys: (from left) khai, wan, sid and mamat

everyone!!

the supposedly candid shot (sempat seh wan)

after too much eating

the vehicles: 2 cars and a bike

Actually we had 3 cars but since it was more than enuf vehicles, we let azm car go. hee~

Exams in a weeks time. *faints .. time to finish up FBC and then will start hitting the books.

ToOdlEs

near to the end

2007-11-02T17:51:00.000+01:00

The Bottom Line of my horoscope for today:-

This latest project of yours is closer to completion than you may think. Persevere!

YEAHHhh .. one more project to go, four more exam papers to sit for and it will all be over!! wee~

Yay to myself for actually surviving the past months of no sleep and the endless submissions and deadlines. And i think my butt grew from sitting in front of the lappy for hours without rest everyday. waha.

For now, i gota end the Food Beverage Costing prj ASAP and start mugging for exams .. woahh .. but some time since i used the word mugging .. haa~ .. i need my study buddy!! diiii .. i miss u lots lah gurl. now i need to find a new study buddy .. anyone? haha

sori if my entries nowadays seems short. will start posting longer after the 16th. with more pictures too. hee~

tOodlEs

a week left

2007-10-27T20:11:00.000+02:00

The bottomline of my horoscope:

You have been creating way too much work for yourself. Loosen up, slack off a bit.

Haha. i wish i could but there's still stuff to do, deadlines to meet and exams to study for. haiz. it's never-ending. One more week of school. but 3 projects to do. and then comes the 4 scary exams to sit for. and soon after that, packing and shopping and preparing to say gdbye. School as much as it has been hectic, it have been fun. Loved the moments in the class of only 23 and am gona miss my groupmates of 4 - me, audrey, julianne and damian. One thing that i kno i wont miss will be the endless journey to and from school. waha

Anyhoos, cant wait for the upcoming Nadi jalan raya on Saturday and Pentas on the 16th Nov.

And later today, will be going down to the mosque for some lesson from 9am to 5pm. Mum said it's to help me prepare myself spiritually wen i fly off to Swiss. I need to learn to become strong. I need to learn to be independent. Will update what i'll learn in my next post.

For now, time to sleep. =) too tired from the lack of sleep (2hr or none at all) this week. no mood for projects today. mayb wen i reach home. *yawns

ToOdles

mA tOutS

Time has passes fast like it usually does
Things has change as what fate has predicted
And I have stood my ground from when I started
No use regretting when one has done their best
I wish that I was better
But wishing will never come true
I hope that everything will be better soon
But hoping doesn’t help unless one tries
And so I will, I know I will
Coz in the end, the sun will continue to shine
No matter how long the storm takes

i wonder why

2007-10-22T15:37:00.000+02:00

If sharing leaves you feeling inferior, whats the point of doing it in the first place. hMmm .. ohwell, mayb it happens for a reason whatever it could be. 'ponders'

And today, Mr Currie, an IMI lecturer came down to teach us the remaining part for food & beverage. costing for now. I juz love the way this IMI lecturers teach. They go straight to the point and wen they make up a joke it is actually funnie. And usually i would be able to remember the lesson learnt at the end of the day. haa~

ps: Mr Currie has this funnie scottish accent but it suits him nice-ly and yay we could understand him well. haha ..

ok that sentence was random.

anyhoos, the project grouping for this subject, instead of choosing ourselves (i was planning to grp up with brainy), he randomly pick us our partners and im 'stuck' with mel, my senior and daniel, my ex-grppie. waha. yay!! at least not with some i reali hope i dont work with. phew ..

and at the second part of the lesson, my cramps kicked in. Suddenly in sch my day came which was a real bad time to show up. I was cringing all the way, trying to hold back the pain and i wish the 3 hrs will zoom past which btw didnt. So i suffered on my chair, wishing i was back home and asleep so i wont feel the pain. so for that lesson, i wasnt paying much attention as i was chanting to myself to hold on for that few hours. aRgHHh .. the agony of being a woman. sighs .. even now it still hurts alot alot. and the panadol doesnt seem to work!! i still have EDP report to streamline.

And yesterday, despite my project load, went jalan raya with my pri sch frens. it be my last chance to do so and to meet up with the complete gang .. wee~ but since i slept near to 5am, i wasnt myself and was slightly exhausted. still, i was glad i went out with them .. enjoyed truly. 'grins'

back to projects. what new huh. waha ..

tOodlEs

hang in there

2007-10-16T18:17:00.000+02:00

horoscope for the day:-

Sticking with things, even when they aren't that much fun anymore, is sometimes necessary. If you make choices about what to do that are all about what will entertain you most, you won't learn too much about yourself, will you? Right now, do something difficult: (i am!!) You'll benefit from testing your resolve and seeing how far you can maintain your self-discipline. You have a lot of willpower that you have never fully taken advantage of. It's waiting for you to discover it.

It is talking about my projects!!! 'gAsp'

reality check:-
IHRM 2000 words individual report is due this friday (1/2way done)
EDP report and presentation (3/4 way done), FMHT project work (1/2way done) and PDP portfolio (must retype everything again!) all due next friday!!!
EDP individual reflective report due next next friday!!
4 main exams (IHRM, ROM, FMHT & MICE) coming mid nov!!!!

shoot me and kill me now. i might as well die from exhaustion anyway. 'weeps'

SALAM AIDILFIRTRI

2007-10-14T05:46:00.000+02:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all muslims

The fasting month reali bullet past extremely fast. I think as the years past by, we as a family are getting used to try enjoying raya once again. Alot of things were done last minute. Raya clothes shopping was done 2 days before and shoe shopping a day before and house cleaning the night before. lolz .. And this year for the first time in my 21 years, i learn how to anyam ketupat and actually making em'. well .. i did the anyam-ing while my mum filled in the rice and steaming it. see our masterpiece below.

yummy ketupat. 'grins' so proud of myself. waha

and this year our colour theme was silver and blue. initially wanted beige and brown but there was no nice brown baju kurung we cld find at the bazaar. Mostly was the transparently tight fitting kebaya which we sisters dont like wearing esp in this hot spore weather.

surprisingly we covered about 6 houses yest even when we left at about 3pm. and they want to go out again today! i wana go to but i have a project due on friday which i have yet to start!! but i wont be able to celebrate next raya with them .. 'weeps' seems like yest was my only raya this year. haiz

anyhoos, my b-e-a-u-tiful family. heart them lots. =)

tOodlEs

breaking down

2007-10-09T17:40:00.000+02:00

I finally did break down when my laptop keyboard key came out. That was it! Technology is bycotting against me. First, my thumbdrive died on me, then my 4 years old mouse was giving me problems and now my precious lappy had to go to the lappy hospital all bcoz of me. *weeps .. i have to wait 2 to 3 days to get it back which i predict will be next monday. aRgHh

So, for the next few days i be laptop-less and i gota rely on my bros comp to finish up my projects. It have been a routine for me to switch on my lappy as soon as i got home but today, i have nothing to switch on. I miss it already!!

Got MM (Mice Management) project back today. Rememeber how i was complaining about writing a whole bid for a wine congress yourself that weights the whole 40% coursework that took me my whole one week break to complete it, yup that one. I score well!!! im soooo thankful and very happy. Another A!!! wee~ insyallah my remaining projects will continue with this wonderous result. Amin.

3 more days to raya .. hmmm ... still not sure if im looking forward to it or hope that the next day comes soon. will decide on friday i guez. waha

till then. tOodlEs

guilty?

2007-10-04T17:59:00.000+02:00

i can finally feel my legs!! haa~ long story to begin with but im grateful to the 'tok'. reali reali a painful experience but alhamdulillah i was strong enuf.

can u believe that i only have about a month of school left? and in less than 3 months time im leaving spore, my family and frens. it's all getting surreal as the days pass by. excited but afraid.

and its confirmed!! to whoever who wana kno to sent me off, im flying on the 3rd Jan 08 at 1am on flight SQ 346 but i gota be at the airport on the 2nd Jan 08 by 11pm which i think i be there earlier. only 10 of us i think will be going together. the rest of my classmates would have reach the campus by then i guez since they're taking the 2nd Jan flight.

and i might not be getting a toilet in my room!! nOoOoo .. hopefully they could rearrange something for me. i need a toilet!!!

MM project will be returned to us on tue and im soooooo afraid to know the grade that i will get since we were told that most of us did badly. sIGh ..
5 more projects to go .. hang in there asy.

only about a week left of fasting. the house still is in a mess, cookies have yet to be baked and i still have yet to find a baju raya. note the A. coz i predict i will only go out on the first day.

tOodlEs

i want my la la land

2007-09-30T19:42:00.000+02:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!! wee~

still rem the days where we had to sing the children day song in pri sch ..
'ahem' Sama sama maju ke hadapan. Pandai cari pelajaran ... lolz.
those were the days

Anyhoos, went out with my classmates for two days straight and im glad i did enjoy myself. well, we dont reali have the chance to socialise that much in class. So on friday, they had a last min plan to hang out and since i was invited, why not. 'grins'
Then the next day, i planned an iftar with them. lolz. Initially there should be around 10 to 11 of us going but ended up only 5 that went - me, drey, norman, patrick and daniel. And of coz not forgetting the restaurant owner himself, Haresh. Yup we had dinner at his restaurant in River Valley called Spize. I reali love the Nasi Pattaya. But before dinner, 5 of us hang around Great World City first since we had bout an hour plus to spare. Dinner was totally filling and yummy-licious. =) And after dinner, had our little chat that lasted for more than 2 hours! lolz.

Speaking of Iftar, Rita, my ex-colleague from my previous SIP co. called to invite for an iftar at Mr Syah house. Im planning to go. For the food. hahaha

And regarding my previous post of my thumdrive that died on me, i think it's officially RIP along with all my projects. Cant believe how relaxed i am. It's not as if i have any back-up. But wats the use of me panicking and crying coz i still have to re-do everything all over again. And the already done 800 words indv reflective report for ROM, i reali cant rem what i've typed. sigh. I shall not buy that brand anymore. hUmpH ..

And and Prison Break 3, Ugly Betty 2, Heroes 2, Grey Anatomy 4 and Bones 3 is already airing!! wee~

12 more days to fasting ..

tOodlEs

thumbdied

2007-09-29T09:42:00.000+02:00

ArgHHhh!! feel like screaming and crying but at the same time trying to calm myself down. My thumbdrive just died on me with all my projects and research (ones that are done and ones halfway done) all gone!!! HOW!! anyone knows if i can recover it all!!!! HELP!!!

'weeps'

two weeks of fasting

2007-09-26T11:54:00.000+02:00

The two weeks of fasting has been passing by fast and had been lotsa fun! The first week was breaking fast with the primary school peepz, then the following week, the secondary school peepz and coming saturday, with my SIM peepz!! wee~ the only ppl im missing now is my Nadi gang and my poly mates.

Just watched the movie 'If Only' recommended by Damien and omg-ness lah!! it's reali touching and im now addicted to the songs that was sung by Jennifer Love Hewitt in the movie. Should reali watch the show and u'll realise how it is to really appreciate and treasure the one you love. 'grins'

Presentation for ROM coming friday. The first since i started studying in SIM. anticipating it but as usual i always have cold feet during presentations. aRGh! i should have gotten used to this mannn .. been doing presentations throughout my poly life.

Anyhoos, got back 3 of our projects back and im soo happy with the results. For FHMT we got a B, i passed my PDP and IHRM, we got an A!!! and i pray i can keep up with this for my other projects.

Finally, today will be my last day teaching the pri 3 kid that stays at Bedok. Partly, im sadden to the thought that i will have to leave without making much difference but another part, im excited to finally be free of him!! waha. coz after a long day at sch and without sleeping at night due to projects, i still have to tolerate his rudeness and nonesense. haiz. not that i hate kids. i love my other two tutees but him, i cant take the tiredness anymore.

630pm already .. time to set the table . toOdleS

self reflection

2007-09-22T20:43:00.000+02:00

Interesting bout me that i should note:-

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:Y
ou are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

ToOdleS

the happenings

2007-09-19T05:39:00.000+02:00

Sleep is a luxury nowadays. when i do get to sleep i wish i can cont'd doing so the whole day. Nowadays, either i can only get a 3 to the most 5 hours of sleep or non at all. I never been so exhausted in my life and still have to push myself to continue on. The tired-ness of it all is slowly taking an effect on my body. Still i have tons of assignments and projects on my have-to-do-lists. Everthing doesnt seems to end.

Today is already a week since we started fasting. It's reali zooming past. 3 more weeks to go before Raya - not that im looking forward to it.

And yest was a blast! had iftar (breaking of fast tog) with my pri sch mates. Just the normal 3 of us as usual - Mas, Nokz and me. Went to Seoul Garden at Bugis again whereby it was filled with the usual crazy talks, lots of laughing and food. After that, since it was still early, mas suggested that we take a walk ... a very long walk. And stupidly and wanting to go tru a new experience and adventure, we agreed. And so we started our walk from Bugis MRT station all the way to Paya Lebar MRT. yes .. we walked THAT far for 2 hours frm 830pm - 1030pm! *faints. Actually our aim was till Eunos or better yet Kembangan but i was too tired already and my feet started to cramp from all the walking. So i opted to take the bus instead. haha. but throughout the walk it had been doubly fun. with more laughter and craziness. it's never a bore with them girls.

Cant wait for coming sat iftar with my sec sch mates now. haha ..

i need another week of real break frm sch. The previous one week break wasnt a break at all. sigh

tOodlEs

the year is here

2007-09-13T18:08:00.000+02:00

I'M 21!!! wahhhhh .. the big 2-1 is actually here.

SingS ..
HappY birthdAy tO aSy
hAppY bIrthDay To Asy
haPpy biRthdAY, hApPy BirThdAy
HapPy bIrtHdaY tO mEeeEE ..

So funnie that last year when it was my birthday, that day was the second day of my SIP and today, it's the second day of the fasting month and im the second born in the family. waha .. abit not related but somehow my life revolves around the no. 2 .. hmmm .. my lucky no. mayb?

Officially today i'll get my key of freedom!! Not that i was ever locked up.

And a bday shoutout to dad too!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! to those who doesnt kno, i hav the same bday as him! wee~

And my agenda today to celebrate my bday .. to finish up MICE project. 'dotz'

tOodlEz

fitting

2007-09-11T15:19:00.000+02:00

My youngest brother is the cutest lah. i didnt expect to get any prezie from him for my coming bday but he actually saved up to buy me something. And it was something im currently in need of. My hp crystal casing had already cracked and i have to resort to scotch tape-ing it together before buying a new one which i predicted in a few days time. And suddenly today, he presented me this mini gift that is wrapped in a cute pooh bear wrapping paper which initially i tout was only a bar of choc. haa~ Instead it was a new crsytal casing for my hp and he actually got my hp model right! impressive!! love him to bits

Today went johor with mum since it was the only off day i hav before the fasting month starts. Planned to go there early around 10am but i overslept since i only slept at 4am. Objective of goin there was to find a tailor that makes a full set of ladies' business suit coz mum said my biz suit i have now is not long enuf for me. waha. Went through the whole of Larkin but the shops there only tailors for baju kurungs. haiz .. wasted our journey there. at least got to buy some dunkin donuts back. yummy ..
So headed to JB to a nearesr shopping mall (which i forgot the name) and finally found one tailor shop. Chose the type of material i want, showed him how the design of the suit should be, took my measurements, negotiated the price and after 45mins of doing all that, we're done!! Think will only collect it after raya. mum told the shop owner it was no rush. =) yay!! my biz suit is on its way!! wee~

counting down to ...

Ramadan - 2 days
My 21st - 3 days

And found out we had a new project to do!!! aRghHHhh .. FMHT somemore .. *faints
They are so not satisfied in killing us already. but to bring us back to life and killing us again is inhuman i tell u! haizzzz ...

tOodLes

advance 21st

2007-09-10T11:37:00.000+02:00

Yesterday was fun fun fun. Though it had cost me a bomb, im glad i had the celebration. 'grins' Thanks so much for those who took the effort to come by. It realli means alot. Terribly sorry though if i was a bad host. waha. but i truly hope everyone enjoyed themselves with the food.

Went for a late shopping with 2 of my bro and my sis at Giants the day before. Then spent half the night baking yummyliciouz brownies. Overslept (haha) and woke up to prepare all the last min stuff before heading down to the chalet. The place was totally cool-ness and supposedly, we should only occupy a bench and a bbq pit but ended up conquering the other benches around us since there was no one else bbq-ing. haa~ Started the pit around 5+pm when finally all the food came and ppl started arriving about 6pm i think.

With wonderful frens around and for once a great family gathering, i didnt feel bad not touching my MICE .. well .. till now. haha. Speaking of MICE, it will be due friday at 12pm and im still halfway done. dead me .. haiz.

Had to make this post short and sweet coz i've got tutoring soon. dreading .. lolz

Pics will be up soon. =)

ToOdlEs

*yawns

2007-09-05T19:14:00.000+02:00

It's only wednesday. or more precisely from my watch, a thursday, but im already drained up. I've been forcing myself to stay awake every night and only sleeping past 2am to get some of my research and assignments done. I need a break! juz a whole full day of sleep pls. *yawns

Was on my way back from tuition juz now and as usual passed by TP. And everytime i do, i will start to reminise my past 3 years there. I cant believe that i still misses my days there. And as i cont'd thinking (something bad to do sometimes .. waha), i realise how fast the it all had passed by. I used to dream, to aim to cont'd my studies in TP. i didnt even planned to futhur my studies till my last year there. And seeing how it all comes and goes as fast, i bet my time spent on this degree will fly too. And after that, no more reason for me to not stepping into the working world. Im too comfortable in juz studying though it sometimes tires me out. but acquiring new knowledge and meeting new frens is where my comfort zone is for now. sigh .. for my sake, i hope time will take its time and crawl past instead.

And ignore my previous post that im leaving on the first. Might be changed back to the 3rd. To make things simpler take it between the 2nd to the 4th that i will fly off. Everything will be confirmed by end this month i hope.

Im gona miss out FBA teacher wen he leaves to go back IMI. waha

tOodLes

money matters

2007-09-03T18:24:00.000+02:00

Woke up late for school. Instead of setting my alarm at 630, i set my radio to on at 630 BUT didnt turn it on. dotz .. so in order not to be late (i still was..) took the taxi from home. OMG-ness lah the money i had to fork out - 18 freaking bucks!! from tamp to clementi. *faints

Nowadays i realise im getting lesser sleep but miraculously i can survive a whole day. From juggling school and projects and tutoring, i can call myself a superwoman. haa~ to me thats it.

And today, was the starting of FBA. Mr Caldwell had to come all the way frm IMI Switz to teach us the subject. And i totally like his teaching style. I can still remember what was being discussed in class!! waha .. if all teachers in IMI have the same teaching style, im gona like studying there. Actually im looking forward to next year already. We got to kno more info of what to expect but there will be more to come. And there's 23 nationalities studying in the campus alone .. haa~ .. gona be an interesting mix of new frens and cultures. As if u hav the whole world in ur school.

Oh and my announcement of the date i be flying, i think it will be earlier instead as we gota be in IMI by 2nd Jan for an orientation on the 3rd Jan.

And im pairing up with brainy for FBA project ... pinky and the brain unite! lolz .. crappy mann ..

Okie back to MICE .. tOodLEs

> tEddY ThoUGhtS <

Move

touched down

degree holder

change of plans

the remaining few days

sigh-ing

Flashback

side-track

passing days

soon .. very soon

1 litre of tears

missing pieces

while everyone's asleep

almost there

tick tock

confirmed!!!

P.H

wats new?

almost

and the night is still young

the weeks comes and goes

the last 200m

random happenings

the offer

The Spring Break

back to reality

back and gone

gone

great?

all nighter

halfway tru

run and hide

rebel

late nights

soup party

heaven's blanket

white blanket

prayers

chiong-ing

the crazy week begin

A week later

horoscope cum advice

setbacks

and back

and it arrives

the short trip

unexpected

the days

Fasnacht and snow

white and beautiful

alone or independent

the changing

midnight snack

bring it on

the weekends

the inner voice

The hectic-ness

the long awaited pictures

more story

im here

toodles

another year

frens .. one can never live without

MERRY XMAS!!!

it's almost time

farewell dinner

the memories that will last a lifetime

when suddenly you realise

broke and burned

About Islam

mood swings

reali gota fly

lost and found

wat i found

the bags

the start of 'kemas'ing

wen time passes this slow

over. beginning. hiccups

my fault?